crumblingsuicide note

I wish that I could find another way
咱们俩还有希望吗
But I am not alive on any day
没有你的每一天都是煎熬
So long before I
我真的希望
I wish you knew how I feel
你能知道我多爱你
About you, about you
我爱你啊
Don't think it's sad too, sad too
我一点也不丧
Suffer I'm glad too, glad too
我甘愿为了你受苦受难
I'm crumbling down, I am so stuck in this town
我快要崩溃了 我被困在这个小镇里
Life of a letdown, letdown
生活越来越烂
Jumping to get down, get down
我只想一跃而起
And I need some help
谁能不能帮帮我
As for it, no chance it help
你能不能帮帮我
Laugh at it, after we fail
我们分了 他们笑我
But I can't get up again
我没法再振作起来
Too soon more to show around
很快就有更多人来看我笑话
Five-cards wants to blow me up
我想出名
Falling is the best of fun
也想堕落
The last look at this gun
虽然不好 但真的爽
Every room in my house is a ****ing mess
我房间乱得就像猪窝
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
我好想逃
Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends
想要交点朋友
Hope you know what you were missing then
你会想起我吗
I wanna write a note that'll make my friends cry
我想给朋友写段感人的话
Write a note that makes my friends cry
让你感动到哭
Really makes me wanna take my life
我好想亲手终结我的命
Take my life
死了算了
"Hey, umm... it's me
这就是我
And I don't really know how to say this, but...
我不知道该怎么说
I don't think umm... I'll be coming home tonight
我今晚不会回来了
And I just wanted to let you know that it's not your fault
这些都不是你的错
And I love you a lot
我很爱你
Uhh...
emmmmm
You know I've been thinking about this for a while
你知道我最近一直在想这事
And I... settled on it y'know so I love you."
该怎么说呢 我爱你