Ill Mind of Hopsin 7

It’s us, find power
吾为凡人，欲参大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意铿铿
It’s us, find power
吾为凡人，欲参大道
(Live life, mind power)Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm
(其生碌碌，其意铿铿)Yo，那些会被我的言论刺激到的家伙们，给我滚开
Life is a tour, I sit and ride along
人生不过一场旅行，我一直独行
Taking some notes
做了点儿笔记【notes不仅是指字面上的笔记之义，还指Hopsin的人生经历】
and then I write the song
我就写下这首歌
I'm staring down the road my life has gone
我死死凝视我的人生道路
Is this where I belong?
这是不是我应该踏上的那一归属？
Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?
不去明辨是非难道就是罪过？
My mental state is fucking me up
我的精神状态让我不得安生
And I pry the problem
while asking you for some answers
我为了求得你的答案而向许愿池呼喊
But we don't have that type of bond
事实上我们并没有这种联系方式
That my desires gone with the way
that I've been living lately
近来各种欲望时常伴我生命左右
If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on
如果现在我下了地狱，你一定会焚起烈火
Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sellout
真厌烦了那些杂碎话，我的听众们说我是个叛徒
Cause I hopped on Christianity
因为我曾对基督教如此狂热，
so strongly then I fell out
结果却只维持三分钟
Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog
with his tail down
如今我像丧家犬般夹着尾巴 躲闪着对我的质疑
Feeling so damn humiliated
because they looking
at me like I'm hellbound
在人们鄙夷的目光中恨不得挖个洞钻进去
What story should I tell now?
而现在，你问我应该编造什么故事？
I'll just expose the truth
我决定让真实说话
I'm so close to the fucking edge,
我现在离无神论如此之近，
I should be close to you
可是上帝，我本应依偎在你身边【一说为接近地狱】
But who the fuck are You?
但是上帝你到底是谁？
You never showed the proof
你从来不泄漏一点机密
And I'm only fucking human yo,
而我不过是蝼蚁般的人类，
what am I supposed to do?
你说我该怎么去认识你？
There's way too many different religions
with vivid descriptions
大千世界充斥着多如牛毛的宗教信仰和五花八门的神秘解读

Begging all fucking men
and women to listen
没皮没脸地洗脑他娘的所有男女老少
I can't even beat my dick
without getting convicted
在他们的言论里打个飞机都是种罪过
These ain't wicked decisions,
以上并不是什么邪恶想法，
I got different intentions
我只是认为教条不必太严苛
I been itching to get it,
我热切地想获得一些答案，
I've been given assistance
我甚至从朋友那里得到一些帮助
But the whole fucking system is twisted
但是整个宗教系统都是如此扭曲
Now I'm dealing with this backlash
现在我正为一片激烈的抵制而头疼，

because Marcus isn't a Christian只因为我Marcus不是个基督徒【Marcus为其真名】
And I've been told
that my sinful life is an addiction
人们说我罪恶的一生充满着恶习

But I can't buy it,
我才不会买账，
it's just too hard to stand beside it
这种教义苛刻得让我无法认同
I need an answer and humans can't provide it
我需要一个真理，凡人无法提供的真理
I look at the Earth and Sun
我会细细研究地球和太阳，
and I can tell a genius man designed it
我认为它们出自天才的设计
It's truly mind blowing,
这是我内心真实的想法闪现，
I can't deny it
我不能否定
Is heaven real? Is it fake?
天堂是真？是假？
Is it really how I fantasize it?
是否与我的幻想一样？
Where's the Holy Ghost at?
那些圣灵现在何方？
How long it take Man to find it?
人类还需在寻找的道路上跋涉多远？
My mind's a nonstop tape playing
我的思考如同不息的磁带，
and I can't rewind it
它也无法倒带
You gave me a Bible
and expect me not to analyze it
你给我一本圣经，却要求我忍住好奇不去钻研它？
I'm frustrated and you provoked it
研究的结果让我沮丧，正是你引发了这一切
I'm not reading that motherfucking book
我才不会去读这样一本扯淡的书，
because a human wrote it
因为它不过出自庸人之手
I have a fucking brain, you should know it
我他妈的有我自己的大脑，上帝你应该知道
You gave it to me to think
你将其赐予我使我思考，
to avoid every useless moment
去免掉所有的不必要

It was a mission that I had to abort这正是我如今不得不终止的使命【mission也有传教之意，Hopsin想让听众理解他对基督教的看法】
Cause humans be lying
因为人总是在说谎，
with such an inaccurate source
我们永远是误解的来源
It's gon' be hard to
put me back on the course
我偏离所谓正道太远，想让我回去太过费劲
Next Jehovah's Witness
to come on my porch
下一个耶和华见证人正无畏地向我家门廊走来【耶和华见证人是1870年代美国发起的圣经信仰，早期称“圣经研究者”，是近现代发展较快的圣经信仰之一】
I swear I'm slammin' the door
而我发誓我会对他甩上大门

A lot of folks believe it though,
多少乡巴佬都相信他们，
but I'm not surprised
我真心不感到讶异
Humans are fucking dumb,
人类都他妈的愚蠢，
still thinkin' that Pac's alive
到现在还相信2Pac还活在人世

I ain't trying to take your legacy
and torch it down
我并不是想诋毁上帝你留给我们的伟大遗产【一说指诋毁2Pac留给hip-hop的财富】
I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit
from the horse's mouth
我的意思是：我从来没从你口中听到关于圣经的只言片语【引用习语“stright from the horse’s mouth,意为从事件发生地听到第一手消息】
Just sheep always telling stories
of older guys
听到的只是你的羔羊们在转述着古人的传奇
Who were notarized by you
when you finally vocalized
传说在你终于现身时赋予他们这权力
Now I'm supposed to bow my head
祷告时他们要求我低下头颅，
and close my eyes
闭上眼
And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise
然后不知怎的会让圣灵出现
Sound's like a fucking Poltergeist
听起来像个傻叉灵异事件

Show yourself and then boom it's done
上帝啊，现身吧，你将实现教会的繁荣
Every rumor's gone,
所有的谣言都将逝去，
I no longer doubt this shit,
我也不会再怀疑神灵，
you're the One
你就是我们唯一的主宰
I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun
那时我将承认我罪恶的人生只是一个愚蠢儿戏
And all my old habits can hop onto
of a roof to plunge
而我所有的恶习将自行远离

I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds
我会将那些用来享乐的钱捐给靠谱的慈善机构
Fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang
with a group of nuns
那些夜店见鬼去吧，比起碧池们我更愿意与一帮纯洁的修女在一起
And everyone
that I ran into would know
what I came to do
那些懂我的人都知道我想要做什么
I wouldn't take a step unless
我不会再轻举妄动，除非
it was in the name of You
是以上帝之名
I hate the fact that I have to believe
令人痛恨的是我不得不去相信所谓圣经
You haven't been chatting
with me like you did Adam and Eve
你与亚当夏娃交谈，却对我置之不理
And I ain't seen no fucking
talking snake unravel from trees
我也从来没见过会说话的蛇在树上揭开你的秘密
With an apple to eat,
偷食禁果的机会
that shit never happens to me
也未曾降临
I don't know if you do or don't exist,
因此我无法知晓你存在与否，
it is driving me crazy
这让我痛苦不堪
Send your condolences,
求你慰问一下我，
this is me reaching to you so don't forget
我只是想接近你，请勿忘记
If hell is truly your pit of fire
and I get thrown in it
如果地狱真的是你的火坑，而我真的掉了进去
I'mma probably regret the fact
that I ever wrote this shit
我也许会为这满纸荒唐言而追悔莫及

My gut feeling says it's all fake,
可惜我的本能在告诉我这都是疯言疯语
I hate to say it but fuck it,
我不想这么说但去他妈的，
shit I done lost faith
我真的失掉了信仰
This isn't a small phase,
这不是一段短小的过渡期，
my perspective's all changed
我的整个世界观都改变了
My thoughts just keep picking
shit apart all day
我的思维整天都忙着把谎言撕碎

And in my mind I make perfect sense
在我心中我有了自己完美的答案
If you aren't real
如果你是子虚乌有，
then all my prayers aren't worth a cent
那么我所有的祈祷都不值一名【a cent与ascent同音，也指祈祷并不能使人升上天堂】
That would mean
that I could just make up
what my purpose is
那就意味着我一介凡人可以拥有自己的意愿
And I could just sit in church
and say "fuck" in the services
当然我也可以在教堂里爆粗口来满足自己

Man what if Jesus was a facade?
如果耶稣基督只是虚假的表象

Then that would mean
the government's god
那就意味着政府才是所谓神明
I feel like they've
been brainwashing us with a lot
他们灌输各种各样思想为我们洗脑便是证据
So much that we don't even notice
that we're stuck in the box
我们还蒙在鼓里不明所以
Man everything is "what if",
对所有事我们都说“假如”，
why is it always "what if"
为什么永远是模糊的“假如”？
Planet Earth "what if",“
假如”地球是神创的？！
the universe "what if"“
假如”宇宙是无穷的？！
My sacrifice "what if",“
假如”我的牺牲和付出有回报？！
my afterlife "what if"“
假如”死后地狱的确存在？！
Every fucking thing
that deals with you is fucking suspect
我们思考的每一件事到头来都只是操蛋的猜测

I'm fucking done,
我受够了，

I'm fucking done
真的受够了

This is my fucking life
and I'm living it, I'm having fun
怎样，我还是过我那罪恶的生活吧，及时行乐什么的

If you really care for me,
如果你真的关心我，
prove that I need to live carefully
就拿出点证据来教我做人啊

But I'll be damned
if I put my own pleasure aside
for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed
但是让我为了一个不知道存在与否的极乐世界而禁欲简直扯淡

We are you, and you're us,
事实上人类就是神啊，而你也不过是人，
stop playing games
不要再玩无聊的角色扮演了【此处提出了泛神论观点；同时运用双关，提出政府来自于人民，应代表人民意志】

My life's all I got,
我的生活正是我的所有，
and heaven is all in my brain
天堂不过存在于我的大脑中

And when I feel I am in hell,
当我感到我正身处地狱，
my ideas are what get me through pain
是我的思想教会我忍受

Do as you please,
你爱怎样就怎样，
and I'll just do me,
我决定坚持自我
I'm a human,
我知道我的地位仅是人类，
I'll stay in my lane
我也不会越界
Ill mind
这是我的病态心理
It’s us, find power
吾为凡人，欲参大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意铿铿
It’s us, find power
吾为凡人，欲参大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意铿铿