What Is Eternal

And here in the night as
I feel the inferno
I stare in the dark thinking what is eternal
The man or the moment the act or the reason
These thoughts fill my head as
I contemplate treason
Of dreams
I have had and dreams
I have pondered
When late in the night my mind it would wander
To things
I have done and then quickly regretted
While denying vices my life had selected
And I think what
I've done or have yet to begin
And the man
I've become and the man that
I've beenNow caught in a waltz with the eternal dancer
I'm courted by death but death isn't the answer
I sayAll I was meant to be
Could I suddenly just decide
Not a thought would survive
Could it be my life's worth
Ended there with my birth
If I could see someone who's been there before me
And traded his soul for a moment of glory
His penance or mercy by spirits debated
While judged on a scale that's been heavily weighted
And what have
I done could there be such a sin
In this man
I've become, in this man that
I've beenNow calling to
God from the pit's very bottom
I pray he forgives every sin
I've forgotten this day
And who would've thought that my fate it would conjure
This twist in the road on which
I have wandered
Each vision and dream now completely dismembered
To give one's whole life and find nothing's remembered
And what good is a life that leaves nothing behind
Not a thought or a dream that might echo in time
The years and the hours the seconds and minutes
And everything that my life has placed in it betrayed
Betrayed, betrayed
The things
I have done the places
I've beenThe cost of my dreams the weight of my sins
And everything that
I've gathered in life
Could it be lost, could it be lost in this
Could it be lost in this night