bad thoughts (feat. lily U哪個pharaoh)

Im gettin worse by the minute just admit it you dont even know
What is going through my ****ing head right now and what is wrong
Why Im locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts
Im counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everythings in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when Im lost and I dont know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong
I cant swim but Im going for the deep end
I cant win Ill be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and Im bout to drown
Tryna hold on but Im going down guess Im a dead man
Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I dont sleep but Im dreaming of emotions
I dont have, Im broken - the truths been spoken
Im gettin worse by the minute just admit it you dont even know
What is going through my ****ing head right now and what is wrong
Why Im locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts
I dont wanna lie, Im a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night , theres a reason I dont smile
Im about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine
I aint never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I dont even got no friends
Cantswim but Im headed for the deep end
Got a feeling I wont make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
Im a human so its natural to shed tears
Living life alone thats my worst fear
And Ill be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain Ill get so ****ing high
Laying on the couch I cant open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life
And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they cant see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now
Im gettin worse by the minute just admit it you dont even know
What is going through my ****ing head right now and what is wrong
Why Im locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts
I dont wanna lie, Im a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, theres a reason I dont smile
Im about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine