dread

I look into the mirror, all I'm seeing is a skeleton
我望見鏡子，一具骷髏佇立
I keep losing weight, so they got me taking medicine
我體重下滑，一顆藥丸入腹
I can't go a day without relying on these sedatives
我已無法與鎮靜劑分離
Therapy and doctors, I feel like a specimen
在醫院和家往復，我像個樣本任人擺佈
Every ******* night that I've been laying in my bed
我在每個深夜在床上沉思
Doing all I can to fight the certain sense of dread
盡我所能與某種恐懼鬥爭
Feeling like this panic that I have will never end
感受這種永不結束的恐慌
And so I fantasize about that gun up to my head
所以感知槍指頭腦的清醒
And now these pills got me feeling asleep
只有安眠藥才能讓我安眠
When I'm awake, can't get away
當藥力散去，痛苦席捲而來
Even when I sleep I feel pain
當睡意襲來，痛苦從未離去
Vivid visions in the past creeping into my brain
過去種種回憶在腦中循環
About to break, I just want to feel like I'm sane
在崩潰邊緣我想變得理智
And I just want to know what I did
我想知道我曾犯下何等罪行
Do I deserve this, like why I gotta deal with this ****, man
需要我用我痛苦一生來償還
And I just wanna know when it happened
我想知道事從何起
When I lost my mind
何時苦難將我包裹
And will I ever truly feel happy, ************
我可曾真正快樂，狗東西
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道苦至何止
Walking around with the same thoughts
帶著它在天台來回踱步
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道淚幹何日
Face down, ****** up with the door locked
臉剎急停砸爛該死的門
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道痛至何休
Walking around with the same thoughts
帶著它在天台來回踱步
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道血凝何時
Face down, ****** up with the door locked
臉剎急停砸爛該死的門
I've been fighting this with everything that I have
我拼盡全力與之抗爭
And I've been trying to separate the good from the bad
我從未停歇區分好壞
Well, I can't see an end to all the pain that I face
但，我看不見痛苦消失，在前方
I had to cancel the tour, I couldn't take any more
是，我不得不取消旅行，在現在
I feel the weight of expectation pressing down on my chest
所以，期望是我所有壓力，喘不上氣
I feel like everybody has their own belief of what's best
感覺，所有人都有所信仰，孤身一人
Meditation, medication, should I pray to a god?
冥想，藥物，我應該向上帝祈禱嗎？
I refuse to let this win and be consumed by my thoughts
我拒絕臣服，我保留思想
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這濤濤江水流向何方
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這廣闊汪洋淚水幾成
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這自由天空囚徒幾個
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這似雪白雲污漬幾點
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這世間疾苦止於何日
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這似雪白雲污漬幾點
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這自由天空囚徒幾個
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這廣闊汪洋淚水幾成
I wanna know when the pain stops
我想知道這濤濤江水流向何方
Walking around with the same thoughts
走來走去痛苦不減
I wanna know when the pain stops
我不知快樂何時來臨
Face down, ****** up with the door locked
從頭到腳，用盡全力砸開那上鎖的心門
I wanna know when the pain stops
我不知傷痛何時離去
Walking around with the same thoughts
思來想去煩惱依舊
I wanna know when the pain stops
我知道答案從未存在
Face down, ****** up with the door locked
從上至下，用盡全力砸開那上鎖的心門