Pain (prod. mental)

Girl get out my mentions
You acting pretentious
Used me for attention
I'm just glad we ended
Got a razor blade in the depths of my mind
Thoughs too sharp Ive been on my grind
Cant believe I let you waste my time
Used to hate myself, now I'm all about mine
Too much negativity around me
Fake homies wanna kick it like rousey
Remember back then all they ever did was clown me
Now I got the drip and they all drowning
Haters like a boat cause they riding the wave
Im just tryna leave a mark fore Im dead in the grave
Nights spent screamin while Im cutting with the blade
Either that or I'm cryin with a gun to my brain
Let it bang, y'all dont understand my pain
Red on my walls, homie no it aint paint
I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain
I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain
Dont wanna be a letdown, but I've done it enough
Too many ash stains and razor blade cuts
So Im reachin to my waist for that thang I keep tucked
This the last time that Im holding the gun
They really think that Im on one
Came on up the scene, made a wave, then my heart sunk
Used to playing games with me, go look out the outcome
Hitting up my phone now, sorry but its all gone
I dont got the time, busy feeling pain
Looking a my scars, I dont think theyll fade away
Playing with my head, so Im aiming at the brain
Used to be the one they loved, now Im singing in rain
Ive been sitting in my room making songs and they all bang
Only way to ease the mind when its all pain
Old friends hit my line but I dont hang
My anxietys been pushing me the wrong way
Tired of wainting, Ive been stuck in the mud
And I really hate the fact that I was never enough
Everyone around me thinks Im living it up
But really all I wanna do is go and drip on the gun