Gethsemane (I only want to say)

I only want to say if there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me
I have changed
I' m not as sure as when we started
Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
Listen surely I've exceeded
Expectations
Tried for three years
seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man
But if I die
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me hit me hurt me nail me to their tree
I'd want to know I'd want to know my God
I'd want to know I'd want to know my God
I'd wanna see I'd wanna see my God
I'd wanna see I'd wanna see my God
Why I should die
Would I be more noticed than I ever was before
Would the things I've said and done matter any more
I'd have to know I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to know I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to see I'd have to see my Lord
I'd have to see I'd have to see my Lord
If I die what will be my reward
If I die what will be my reward
I'd have to know I 'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to know I'd have to know my Lord
Why should I die
Why should I die
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason for you're wanting me to die
You're far to keen and where and how but not so hot on why
Alright I'll die
]Just watch me die
See how I die
See how I die
Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years
Seems like ninety
Why then am I scared tofinish
What I started
What you started
I didn't start it
God thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me beat me kill me
Take me now
Before I change my mind