Today I Cried

I only went and ******* did it
Used to be a dream but now I ******* live it
Weren't even writing raps I was down and out about to * ****** quit it
Lucky for me that I ******* didn't
See lily came along when I was at my lowest
Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with
I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her,
Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurred
Back with the bag,with the bag full of herbs init
Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it
My name started causing murmurs in the industry
But none of these labels would work with it until virgin did
Put my first single out and we earned a hit
That's why whenever Phillipe and Darkus hear me
I know it must burn a bit
Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it
The day I risked everything for
I couldn't have given anything more
All these years have weighed heavey
But this is something that nothing could have readied me for
What,you think all my problems are remedied
Cos i get an applause!?they're not!
Today I cried,and i don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why
Today I cried,and i don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why
My single went in at 3then my album went in at 2
For a debut not too shabby,
if I have to I'll make do
Finally some form of reward for the thingsI came through
But it's different to the perfect picture people paint you
On the way up you might be a person people take to
Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate too
All of a sudden anything you may do may make news
And I'm sick to death of explaining was is and aint'true!
Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same to
Though I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take two
And ungrateful I would hate to seem,cos'I'm leaving the dream now
But I don't sleep now, and all these hours awake are making me senile
Snapped every time i'm seen out,even people I been round
My whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me now
They say I 've changed but I really don't see how
I've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round
Never knowing what it is I'm trying to seek out
But I 'm even beginning to question me now
Today I cried and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why （why?）
Today I cried and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why （i don't know why i cried）
I know it must seem mad to you it's mad to me
All I've done is what I've had to do,been who I've had to be
But the path I've walked has been so gravely
It's been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity
Thankfully,I had nan who was a mum and dad to me
You can choose your friends,but you can't use your family
Temporary,happiness for me has been a fallacy
'His so sad, isn't he?'stick your sympathy it means jack to me
I'm sick of hearing how happy I should be
I just don't know how to be
I can no longer pretend no more making out to be
Maybe all I needs a slap,someone to shake it out of me
Help me dispel my irrational thoughts and think more rationally
I'm sick of being in this state of anomie,it's agony
Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity?
Can it be,I'm really just obsessed with myself?
Obsessive compulsive depressed my pressures reflecting my health?
Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself
Rejected therapy no I just won't accept any help
I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I lied
I was asked how I was and I said I was fine,I'm not!
Today I cried,and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why
Today I cried,and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why
Today I cried,and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why
Today I cried ,and I don't know why
But today I cried and I don't know why