Legacy

How do you want to be remembered?
Being rich?
Visions of seeing my self as some what different
Reality got me feeling indifferent
I'm lifting this weight of my shoulders
But how older I get
I reload the clip and sip on something
I feel good for nothing
All my glory days behind me or beyond me
I'm folding like origami
My tables turning like interior decorating
Levels like elevators
These haters got me questioning my judgement
Tried by jury of my peers but with a judgement
What will my legacy be?
Who will my enemy be?
In due time as I write this rhyme
I don't know
Flash before my eyes
And on my deathbed what will I say as I pray
And reminisce of another day
I came from nothing, a child born in poverty
Went to college to gain knowledge
So they would acknowledge me
Honestly I got a good job
I found a woman made her my wife
But spent more time at work
So we could have a stable life
And when my son was born
I had to work even harder
Before I knew it my wife was giving birth to my daughter
Went from 40 hours a week to 80
Ain't nobody going pay me but myself
Sacrificing my time and my health for wealth
I missed a birthday, miss a anniversary
There's lots of people in this world that are worse than me
I wasn't there for my son's first words
But he ain't grow up in the hood like me we in the burbs
Sacrifice a couple years
He can have all the money when I'm gone
What a fool I was I missed his graduation
I missed her a wedding day
I didn't even get to give my little girl a way but
I paid for the honeymoon, yeah, I paid for the honeymoon
I'm not there right now but I will be later
I'm working on something that's greater
That's my legacy
I'm going to be remembered by generations to come
Damn, you dumb
You won't be remembered by your son
To be remembered by generations to come
You a fool
You won't be remembered by your son
Nonsense, nonsense
I said to the man with no money, nonsense
Step back who running from me I don't know my own identity
I look in the mirror I ain't clearer
I'm just trying to be free, who is that, it surely ain't me
As I lay on my deathbed I realized I was wrong
I have been the richest man in the world all along
A beautiful family that all I did was ignore
For financial stability and the fear of being poor
'Cause when I was a child knew I always wanted more
When I was a child knew I always
Wanted more, more, more
Now I got it
Now I'm laying in this bed cancer spreading through my lungs
Looking at my family like damn y'all were the ones
I sacrifice my life for 100's 50's 20's 10's 5's
And 1's so dumb I give it all
If I could do it for my heart again not my wallet
I hate to recall it but it's gone now legacy is gone now
Sacrifice my health for wealth no it wasn't worth it
But as I take my last breath I know that I deserved it
Daddy , daddy, daddy, daddy
The Legacy you going to leave behind you forever
Is the blood in your veins wake up daddy now
Is the time for change and as your child
I'm telling you I don't give a damn
If we living on change daddy just as long as we live in,
Just as long as we live in daddy,
I just want to be happy
I don't give a damn if we live in a shoebox
Now my mama going to tell you what you got
I love you, I love you,
I love you I want you I need you I crave you
Why you throw away this pussy that I gave you
Why you fucking around behind my back
While I'm home raising my children
Feel like a single mother even though a ring up on it
Supposed to be like husband
And wife you more like my opponent
Finger fucking myself because fucking fidelity
I'd rather look in the mirror be happy who I see
Sometimes I want to take my babies and go to my mama crib
Can I live?
Can I have a life away from my life
Be the woman that I would have been if I wasn't your wife
You know I love them but if that test wasn't positive
I would have had a lot to give
Sometimes I want to divorce your ass and take half, motherfucker
But I stay 'cause I love these children
And I love you deep down, that's why I stick around, but
You never there because you just want to be the best
You just want to make this money
Come get this pussy motherfucker
Come get this pussy and love your children
Fuck your legacy
Fuck it
Float in the abyss of nothingness my consciousness
Remembers a life before it hits black
I wish I could get back and then I realize that
All this shit is just a daydream
And there's only like four of us in a tour bus
And I'm in the back, how about that?
Think about my legacy
And as how we as human beings sacrifice help for money
Ain't it funny?
'Cause in the end we spent all our money
On repairing our body and mind
When we really should have just spent time
Fuck a legacy
I'mma go live my life
Peace