Trying

Oh I can't get out
噢，我逃脱不掉
Invisible handcuffs locked on me
无形的枷锁拷住了我
Been praying for my period all week
整个星期都在祈祷大姨妈
And relief that I just can't see
松了口气只是因为我看不见
I question everything
我对一切都充满困惑
My focus, my figure, my ***uality
我注意的焦点，我的身材，我的性欲
And how much it matters or why it would mean anything
这些又有多重要呢，为什么它们就能代表一切了
I can't keep it together
我无法事事兼顾
I've been better
我已经好多了
I've been thinking about it every night
曾经每夜我都辗转反侧
I'm trying, I am
我试过，努力过
I'm trying, I am
我试过，努力过
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
我试着隐匿自己的主见
Trying all the time, I am
我一直努力着
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
我试着隐匿自己的主见
Trying trying
一次次努力着
Why am I
为什么我要这样做呢
I can't get out
我逃脱不掉
There's no flawless education just a stupid degree
没有所谓完美的教育，只有一纸愚蠢的学位证
The feeling of growing so far from myself
成长的感觉离我如此遥远
I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach
我达不到，达不到
So I brush it off, cause I want it bad
我是那么迫切想要拥有，只能漠视这些
And there's no dusting up
再也不会有什么骚动了
When you want like that, here's a ship
当你想要类似时，这就是那艘小船
There's a wreck, better keep yourself in check cause
最好你时刻控制着自己，这是艘沉船
All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive
船上装载的所有疑惑都会吞没你
I'm trying, I am
我试过，努力过
I'm trying, I am
我试过，努力过
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
我试着隐匿自己的主见
Trying all the time, I am
我一直努力着
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
我试着隐匿自己的主见
Trying, trying
一次次努力着
Why am I...?
为什么我要这样做呢
If it counts for anything
如果它影响着任何事
I didn't want to
我不想要
I'm just looking for clarity
我只希望一切明晰
To help me get through
帮我熬过这时刻
If you're set in your ways
如果你已习惯你的生活方式
What can I do, Ease up
我能做些什么呢，放轻松吧
So that I can break it down for you can't
这样我才能打破你所不能力及的
Feed a beast you
满足你这混账
Leave unleashed it'll
它会被释放出来
Come right back to you
再回到你的身边
I'm trying
我一直尝试
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
试图隐匿自己的主见
Trying all the time, I am
我一直尝试
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
试图隐匿自己的主见
Trying, trying
一次次努力着
Why am I...?
我为何如此
Why am I?
我为何如此
Why why?
为什么为什么
Why am I?
我为何如此