Bugbear

Being in this space has made me feel
置身此间
A bit more small and
感觉自己有点渺小
I'm not quite sure where I'm going next
下个目的地不知哪里去找
I'll try to use a map but with directions I tend to be bad so
想看地图但路痴难改
I'll use GPS and pray for the best
不如用GPS 让命运寻觅路线
I've got so many years to flesh this out and be what I wanna be
这么多年 足够我充实自己 成为想成为的人
But it's confusing to say the least
可这也确实奇怪
No perception of time or space or distance, or weight
时间空间感受不到 距离重量也都缺少
And I think I'm going insane
我想我就要丧失理智
Doomed to graduate and remain a beast
都要毕业了 我还懵懵懂懂
And Ohhh, I just want you to know
哦~ 我只是想让你们知道~
I feel so brain dead next to you
在人身旁我的脑袋太不开窍
It's not like you intended to
倒不是要怪你们
Hurt me or make me feel that way
故意伤害我 让我这样恍惚
And I'm not trying to complain
而我也并非抱怨
But it just sucks to try and explain
只是不想费力地解释
Why I feel like this every day
为什么每天我都感觉如此
1, 2, 3, 4
Sleeping through your days and skipping meals
从早睡到晚 少吃几顿饭
Must sound so unappealing
是不够让人心动
But I guess it's different when it's the norm
可我想要是习惯成自然 就大不一样
Sinking deeper into whatever this is without a hint of reflection
盲目地沉溺其中 麻木感完成缓冲
Can't tell if this is the calm or if this is the storm
难辨这是暴风雨 还是宁静
Giving everything I've got equates to about a shower and waking up late
用我的一切换次淋浴 再多睡一会儿
Faced with anything I tend to flee
直面我想逃离的东西
So when I'm thrown into the adult world
等到我被扔进大人的世界
Where they do things that I never learned how to do
发现我毫不了解他们做的事
I guess I'll live in a swamp or a tree
我就知道 沼泽或树才是我的住处
And Ohhh, I just hope you all know
哦~ 我只是希望你们知道~
I feel so brain dead next to you
在人身旁我的脑袋太不开窍
It's not like you intended to
倒不是要怪你们
Hurt me or make me feel this way
故意伤害我 让我这样恍惚
And I'm not trying to complain
而我也并非抱怨
But it just sucks to try and explain
只是不想费力地解释
Why I feel like this every day
为什么每天我都感觉如此
My brain is surrounded by school kids who all got their valedictorian course
周围的孩子们都在准备最优等生致辞
While I couldn't care enough about my 3.8
只有我对自己的好成绩不太在意（4.0是最高绩点）
No matter how hard I try
不管我有多努力
I'm still not trying hard enough to be
还是不够成为他们所说的
Great
“优秀”的我自己