Closer to Fine

I'm trying to tell you something 'bout my life
我要和你聊聊我的生活
Maybe give me insight between black and white
也许这能让我分清黑白是非
And the best thing you ever done for me
你为我做过最棒的事情
Is to help me take my life less seriously
就是让我不要把生活看得太重
It's only life after all, yeah
终究只是生活而已
Well, darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
黑暗贪得无厌
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
光明奄奄一息
And I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
我用恐惧裹紧自己
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it
我平平安安直到生命沉船
I'm crawling on your shores
我在你的海岸苦苦挣扎
[01:54.95]And I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
看医生，去爬山
[01:59.66][03:02.78]I looked to the children, I drank from the fountains
照顾孩子，痛饮泉水
[02:04.16][03:27.16]There's more than one answer to these questions
答案永远不止一个
[02:08.41][03:31.37]Pointing me in a crooked line
指引我曲折前行
[02:11.97][03:33.90]And the less I seek my source for some definitive (The less I seek my source)
我越是不给自己设限
[02:15.85][03:48.56]Closer I am to fine, yeah
感觉越是更好
And I went to see the doctor of philosophy
我去见哲学博士
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee
他胡子齐膝，墙上挂着拉斯普京
He never did marry or see a B-grade movie
他终身未婚，也不看B片
He graded my performance, he said he could see through me
他给我打分，声称能够看穿我
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind
我这四年都屈服于聪明人
Got my paper and I was free
写出论文，我才解放
I stopped by the bar at 3 A.M.
看医生，去爬山
To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friend
照顾孩子，痛饮泉水
And I woke up with a headache like my head against a board
答案永远不止一个
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before
指引我曲折前行
And I went in seeking clarity
我越是不给自己设限
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
感觉越是更好
We go to the doctor, we go to the mountains
凌晨三点，我来到酒吧
We look to the children, we drink from the fountain
要么借酒消愁，要么倾诉心声
Yeah, we go to the Bible, we go through the workout
起床时头痛欲裂
We read up on revival, we stand up for the lookout
反而愈加迷惘
Closer I am to fine
我去追寻真理