i need a hug

"You really put me at ease.
“你真能使我安心十足
So even if I die, please do your best to live on.
所以尽管我死去了 请你竭尽活下去
See how this world will end and find out why it was created.
看着这个世界崩分离析 寻找出世界又是如何诞生的
Find out why scaredy-cats like me are here.
探寻出为何像我这样的胆小猫会在此
And the meaning behind why we met.
还有我们相遇的真正意义
That is, my wish."
这就是 我的愿望 你知道我的血是黑的吗
”I have a lot of time left. ”
我尚有良多时间
“Well, since it's Christmas, I'll hum a little tune."
啊 既然是圣诞节的话 我给你哼一首歌吧”
I-I-I know I got an issue It's been tryin' to get control of me
我早知我有着问题 他也在尝试控制着我
I've been doin' work But I don't got no time for therapy
我专心努力着 却遗忘了给自己治疗
I just wanna fade away I hate the way they stare at me
我只想隐淡去 我厌恨着世俗目光
I just need a shoulder, babe I just need someone to carry me
我只需一个臂膀 希望谁能给予我一个拥抱
(I know) I know I'm a loner, but I like that they don't notice me
我知道我孑然一身 但我不想引人注目
That way no one's sued if it gets out that I die horribly
如果我死得惨不忍睹这样就不会有人控诉我
Mom said I should smile, she don't like that I think morbidly
妈妈觉得我要以笑面人 她不想我太过病态
But it ain't my fault, it's all these demons deep inside of me
但这并不是我的错 是内心恶魔在作祟
W-When I was a kid, I had some friends, they all were there for me
当我还是稚嫩孩童时 我有着身旁朋友 他们会在一旁陪伴着我
Now I just be stuck up in my room 'cause I'm a ****in' freak
如今被困在这冰冷房内 只因我被质疑为怪胎
I don't even matter, I'm a **** up, I'm a wannabe
心想着无大碍 我只是个混蛋 只会一味去模仿
I can never **** witchu 'cause I don't even **** with me
我不会和你去翻云覆雨 只因我
How could you love me?
你怎能随意爱上我
H-How could-how could you love me?
你怎能就这样爱上我
Cut me the check, please
递出支票 务必
She don't want me, she want money
她并不渴望我 她眼中只有钱
I know she forgot me
我早知她遗忘了我
She's moving on, and that cut deep
她步伐不止 伤口愈发深裂
How could you love me?
怎能能爱上我呢
How could you love me?？
怎能爱上这样的我呢
(I can-I can-) I can't tell the difference from my friends and all my enemies (Whoa)
我不能分出谁是友或是敌
Lying to myself to hide away my evil energy (Energy——)
对自己撒个谎 躲避我的邪恶能量
You will never understand, so take a stand and let me be (Let me be)
你永不会知晓 所以站起去让我承担吧
'Cause I don't need opinions from a person wit your tendencies (Tendencies)
我不需要你喜欢的人的意见或建议
S-So tell me I'm the reason why, tell me I'm the reason how!
就只需告诉我我是你内心的答案 我就是你唯一渴望
Everything inside my life is kind of ****ing freaking out
如今生活中每件小事都怪诞诡奇
leaking out
流出着
"All my blood is black," I keep on screaming out
我的血是暗黑色 我不经尖叫
Trapped inside a cage inside my mind
关押在我脑海中心房笼里
Oh wait, I see it now
稍等 我懂了
Hey
I see the world below me (Below me)
我望见世界低于我
I hate it how you always control me, now (Control me)
我厌恨着你一味控制着我
I'm better off just being the only (The only)
我还是做那独一无二好了
You told me, I'm "better off lonely”
你告诉我 孑然一身才是最好