Disintegration

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery
the shameless kiss of vanity
the soft, and black, and velvety
uptight against side of me
and mouth and eyes, and heart of bleed
and running thickening streams of greed
as bit by bit it starts the need
to just let go my party piece
oh i miss the kiss of treachery
the aching of kiss before i feel
the stench of love for younger meat
the sound it makes when it cuts in deep
the holding of bended knees
addiction of duplicities
as bit by bit it starts the need
to just let go my party piece
i never said i would stay to the end
so i would leave you with babies
and hoping for frequency
screaming like this in
the hope of sincerity
screaming me over and over and over
leave you with photographs
pictures of trickery
stains of carpet
and stains on the scenery
songs about happiness
murmured in dreams
when both of us knew
how the ending would be
so its all come back round
to breaking apart again
breaking apart again like im
made up glass again
making it up
behind my back again
holding my breath
for the sleep again
holding it up behind
my head again
cutting in deep
to the heart of the bone
round and round and round
its coming apart again
over and over and over
now that i know that
im breaking into pieces
pull out my heart
and ill feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy
crocodiles cry
for the love of crowd
three cheers from everyone
dropping through sky
through the glass of the roof
through the roof of your mouth
the mouth of your eye
through the eye of the needle
its easier for me
to be closer to heaven
than ever feel whole again
i never said i would stay to the end
i knew i would leave you
with babies and everything
screaming like this
in the whole of sincerity
screaming me
over and over and over
i leave you with photographs
pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet
stains on the memory
songs about happiness
murmured in dreams
when both of us knew
how the ending always is
how the ending always is