make it through

It's July again
It's been raining since then
Still haven't found my way
I wish I could retry
I'm terrified,that I lied
When you cried,wished I died
But the past is in the past
And this sadness always lasts
Tension rising,I feel numb
I don't how I will push through
Unsure if it's my own fault
And if I'll make it out alive
But I'm still lost,in the dark
And at what cost will I push through?
I'm still lost,on my own
Still I tossed those thoughts aside
Day by day,fighting the urge
At any cost,I'll finish this song
Through and through,I still wonder
If I'll still stay the same?
But after all,life will go on
And after all,I'm still on my own
But maybe I can make it there
My thoughts are twisted,but I resisted
And maybe life is more than this
Stuck in my head,I'd rather bе dead
Will I escape this еndless dream?
What if I don't even care
My thoughts are blank,I try to move
But it was all an empty vow
Tension rising,I feel numb
I don't how I will push through
Unsure if it's my own fault
And if I'll make it out alive
But I'm still lost,in the dark
And at what cost will I push through?
I'm still lost,on my own
Still I tossed those thoughts aside
Day by day,fighting the urge
At any cost,I'll finish this song
Through and through,I still wonder
If I'll still stay the same?
Oh,I'm still lost
Still on my own
But through the dark
Your hand takes mine
It's just a spark
You're still alone
But doubts are forming
These walls are falling
Oh,I'm still lost
Still on my own
But through the dark
Your hand takes mine
"You'll be okay"
"You'll be okay"
Was it all worth it?
Was I mistaken?