Throw Myself Away

My mind goes so fast
I’m just trying to slow it down
I know I give the impression
that I’m independent
But I need a body right now
Giddy up, giddy up
Give me a crush
But it’s never enough
I need the rush
You see I get validation
As soon as I get naked
I know I should treat me sacred
But secretly I'm praying
That we’ll make it into daylight
But they only love me when it’s night time
I throw myself into other boys arms
Just to get over the other one
I throw myself away and break my heart
To get over the love that died
I don’t know why I try, I tried
I don’t know why I try
I don’t know why I try, I tried
I don’t know why I try
When true love don’t last
I get drunk and I run around town
I squeeze myself into dresses
Get real obsessive
I’m not his possession, I’m out
Giddy up
Tell me I’m lush
Make a real big fuss
Pretend that it’s love
You see I get so frustrated
And I text him and I hate it
I should lower my expectations
but secretly I’m praying
that he’ll come over tonight
Say he’s sorry and that everything’s alright
I throw myself into other boys' arms
Just to get over the other one
I throw myself away and break my heart
To get over the love that died
I don’t know why I try, I tried
I don’t know why I try
I don’t know why I try, I tried
I don’t know why I try