sting of honesty

Feel so so far away from consciousness in this bed
Try to list off wanted things
But the story's cut short, the end
The trouble of thinking
Has proved to be too much
There's no more dreams to crush
Head filled up with a heart half empty
Senses come undone
Do you believe in yourself?
That thought was always so foreign
Who knows?
Sting of honesty from the whiplash
Sat back watching from a distance
Out of body this experience is
Nothing as expected
Grasping for a breath of fresh air
But the smog is getting stale
'Cause the less there was to know
The happier I was
Taken back, looking at
Everything there is to offer
Not much to stand on
Like what's the point
When nothings pure at all?
Sitting here waiting
For you to come make me something I say I'm not
Out of body and out of my mind
I wish somebody would say i'll be fine
Wouldn't care if it's a lie
Yeah I know I made it so far
I'm still weak and I've tired so hard
To fight off all the feelings that I've
Carried in my heart
Overthinking 'bout my past mistakes
I wanna fade away into a void of nothingness
War of habit, I won't give control
I still break down from time to time
But I got no more tears to cry
Taken back, looking at
Everything there is to offer
Not much to stand on
Like what's the point
When nothings pure at all?
Sitting here waiting
For you to come make me something I say I'm not