Silence

Silence -Jarren Benton /Sareena Dominguez
Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away
I waited all my life to say
My misery hates company
I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me
Silence is golden
Go through the motions
Silence is golden
The same color that my throne is
Yeah d**n can't believe that my homeboy dead
I still feel shocked like I'm shot in the head
I woke up and cried 'til my eyes turned red
I wish it was a nightmare that I just had
The coroner just put my n**ga in a bodybag
And his mama turned away cause she cannot witness that
And I ain't know what to say when I was standin'with your dad
Only thing that I could think was godd**n this is sad
Man we was just laughin'on the weekend
That was your goodbye guess it just sinked in
No words that I can jot with the ink pen
To describe the way I feel I guess I'm still grievin'
I wish that I could bring my n**ga back
He ain't even know how much he meant to me and that was wack
That I couldn't even express it 'til he layin'on his back
At his f**kin'funeral when I ain't know how to react
Yeah we supposed to get rich together
God had another plan for you that was better
I send a prayer to your mama and your whole family
Rest in peace dog you my homeboy forever
Yeah I know you livin'in the sky
I wish I had a better way to tell my n**ga bye
Make sure you cherish every moment that you spend with your people
Cause you never know tomorrow they could die
Uh you believed in me homie yeah and for that I thank you
I know you're in a better place
Probably up in heaven crackin'jokes with them angels
Never be forgotten as I'm writin'over violins
I feel alone like I'm on my own island
I think about my n**ga every day like
I'm at a loss for words as I drown in the silence
Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away
I waited all my life to say
My misery hates company
I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me
Silence is golden
Go through the motions
Silence is golden
The same color that my throne is
Yeah d**n there we go not speakin'again
Out the front door a n**ga leavin'again
I rode around the city pissed off about some bullsh*t you said
Make me feel like I ain't breathin'again
I get back and we ain't talked to each other for like two days
D**n girl who pissed in your kool aid
I apologize a trillion times make it a trillion one
But this time I'm too late
Yeah I guess you fed up with my sh*t
To get through that cold heart I need an ice pick
The look on your iris so lifeless remember them good times
We had that was priceless
D**n did I f**k you up that bad
You need space now I guess I respect that
I'm tryna break through them walls that you put up
But I don't even know where your head at
Yeah I guess I better let her fly away
It's hard to cope with the pain I wanna die today
I'll find a f**kin'hideaway to hibernate
I sit and let this liquor wash the hurt like a tidal wave
And oh yeah by the way
If I could take all the hurt back I'd find a way
I guess I'll pop another pill so I can sleep and let my brains cook
Like I put my head inside a microwave
Yeah now I feel like a loser
I knew all the wrong I was doin'I would lose her
Now I see the light amen hallelujah
But I'm stuck in my sh*t like I sit in cow manure
World went crashin'when I lost my co pilot
Ringin'in my head somebody turn off the sirens
She ain't even talk to a n**ga and it hurts so bad
Now all I do is drown in your silence
Time is tickin'yeah it's tickin'away
I waited all my life to say
My misery hates company
I'm at a loss for words that's a first for me
Silence is golden
Go through the motions
Silence is golden
The same color that my throne is