grave of the fireflies

I'm terrified of my own mind,
我害怕自己的思想
mentally tied up and confined
精神上被束缚禁锢
Always feeling like it's too much pressure,
总觉得泰山压顶
I think i'd rather be alone forever
我想我宁愿永远孤身一人
I lie awake in bed and weep.
清醒着卧床而泣
I clench my fists and grip my sheets
攥紧拳头，紧握床单
Always feeling like it's too much pressure,
总觉得泰山压顶
I think i'd rather be alone forever
我想我宁愿永远孤身一人
I can't tell you how I feel inside.
我无法告诉你内心的感受
Makes me wanna run and hide
让我想要逃跑躲藏
Cut every tie I have and crawl under the floor
剪碎我每条领带，然后爬到地板下
Why must every time I make a stride does
为什么每次我要迈步前进
it feel like i'm taking two steps backwards?
都感觉像是后退了两步呢
But it doesn't matter...
但这已经无关紧要
i'm so used to feeling shattered...
我早已习惯崩溃
My nightmares have names,
我的噩梦们都有名字
the pills keep them at bay..
药片能让他们远离
but they're the only ones who kept my company
但只有他们能陪伴我
The heart knows what it wants
内心知道自己想要什么
but doubt and volatile reservations often overshadow this...
但怀疑和反复无常的保留往往使这一点黯然失色
I've been wondering what it'd feel like to die.
我一直在想，死了会是什么感受
Will I still make it past twenty-five?
我还能撑过25岁吗
Trying to hold onto the present,
试图抓住现在
simple joys keep me rooted
简单的快乐让我坚定
but I've got this penchant for defeat
但我有失败的嗜好
Step off the ledge,
迈出窗台
momentarily fly...
这一瞬自由飞翔...
I can't tell you how I feel inside.
我无法告诉你内心的感受
Makes me wanna run and hide
让我想要逃跑躲藏
Cut every tie I have and crawl under the floor
剪碎我每条领带，然后爬到地板下
Why must every time I make a stride does
为什么每次我要迈步前进
it feel like i'm taking two steps backwards?
都感觉像是后退了两步呢
But it doesn't matter...
但这已经无关紧要
i'm so used to feeling shattered...
我早已习惯崩溃