Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

Yeah, I can't get no better, can’t get no more cheddar
生活千篇一律 再也没当初的冲劲去努力赚钱
I feel like a king and my queen is Coretta
我觉得我是个国王 而我的王后是Coretta【马丁路德金的爱人】
I been made a livin', I'm never gon’ give in
凭一己之力与生活抗衡 绝不可能向它屈服
I'm just way too driven, that's why I been thinkin'
用之不竭的动力与之相伴 但时常会胡思乱想
I'm scared that I'm sinkin', I'm scared that I’m fallin’
我害怕我会固步自封 我害怕我会陷入泥谭
The world think I'm ballin’ and maybe I am
全世界都觉得我是为了钱而说唱 也许你们说的很对
But don't give a damn, back in the beginnin'
但我不想理会无稽之谈 回想当初初露头角
Did not have a plan, don't know who I am
没什么可行的计划 也没人知道我是谁
Or who I’m becomin' but I'ma do me to the fullest, alright
也不知道会历经多少磨难 但我坚信我会尽我所能
Bustin' and dodgin' them bullets all night
每夜为活命四处逃避子弹
Take over the world, yeah I'm thinkin' I might
掌控这世界 我想我能胜任
Got 'em all in my sight
他们都在我的视线内
I know that I'm strong, I know that I am
我知道 我内心已足够强大
I know I'm the man and whether you poor
同时也明白身为一个男人 不管贫穷与否
Or you filled with financial security
都需要来自经济上的安全感
Everyone deal with they own insecurity
几乎每个人都要绞尽脑汁应对自己的不安全感
Even the preacher was born with impurity
即便是牧师也不能保证心无杂念
Scared to go out even with my security
即使有保安替我保驾护航 也不敢踏出家门半步
Scared of the world and all of its obscurity
我害怕这世界用它的阴暗面将我吞噬
Pray for maturity, hope that I grow
祈祷成熟 渴望成长
Hope my anxiety stay on the low
但愿我的焦虑症能一直维持在低水平下【逻辑在专辑Everyone里也提到过这些】
I swear I hope that shit don't **** up my flow
我发誓我也希望烦恼不会影响我原有的水平
Where do I go? What would you do
我将去往何处?你愿指引我吗
If suddenly all of your dreams came true?
假如刹那间你的梦想都成真了?
What would you do if you did it all? (If you did it all)
高枕无忧的你 接下来会做什么？
If you ain't never have to lift a finger
如果这些(想法)对你来说只是举手之劳
Would you linger like, "**** 'em all"?
你会想在此逗留然后“作为局外人鄙视他们所努力的一切”?
Guess it's your call, but I can't (It's your call, but I can't)
我猜这也是你心中所想 但我与你大相径庭
This a marathon, not a sprint
我猜这也是你心中所想 但我与你大相径庭
Switch up the plan like homie that went from Verizon to Sprint
就像Paul Marcarelli试图利用知名度 从Verizon换到Sprint【前者是演员，后两者是移动公司】
Can you hear me now? Does anybody out there feel me now?
此刻你可以侧耳倾听？你能与我感同身受吗？【让Paul Marcarelli在电视广告中出名的一句话】
What's your name? What's your game?
你叫什么名字？说唱技巧如何？
Come now boy, just spit your flow
来吧 尽情把你的心声吐露出来
Feel the pain with the game, what you tryna say though?
然后体会这圈子给予你的痛苦 苦不堪言了吧？(还羡慕我吗？)
Novocaine to the brain, I can't feel nothing no more
Novocaine(麻醉剂)注射进了大脑 我再也没有任何感受
In my lane, can't refrain from lettin' these people know
在这条跑道(圈子) 身心俱疲的我被压到喘不过气
What's your name? What's your game?
你叫什么名字？说唱技巧如何？
Come now boy, just spit your flow
来吧 尽情把你的心声吐露出来
Feel the pain with the game, what you tryna say though?
然后体会这圈子给予你的痛苦 苦不堪言了吧？(还羡慕我吗？)
Novocaine to the brain, I can't feel nothing no more
Novocaine(麻醉剂)注射进了大脑 我再也没有任何感受
In my lane, can't refrain from lettin' these people know
在这条跑道(圈子) 身心俱疲的我被压到喘不过气
How I feel (How I feel),
这是我此刻的感受
Yeah that's how I feel (That's how I feel)
这就是我此刻的感受
Break it down, roll it up,
点火 再点一根
That's how high I feel (That's how high I feel)
抽一根就感觉烦恼烟消云散
How I feel (How I feel), how high I feel (How high I feel)
(此时)感觉快活似神仙
Down, roll it up, yeah
那就再来一根
Searchin' for bliss only led me to searchin' for hits
寻求快感的同时也能给我带来无数灵感
Only led me to battle depression
这些(烟)使我能暂时战胜忧郁
And I don't learn my lesson 'cause fame never lessen the pain
不想听“吸烟有害健康”这些话 因为只有烟能使我逃离成名之后的种种痛苦
What if your life was under a glass?
如果你生活在玻璃下呢？【逻辑之前是倾向于倾听来自IG、推特中的意见，但网络不就是个“法外之地”吗？】
And people tried to dig up shit from your past
媒体还接连不断地想从你的过去找料【许多只想着蹭热度的社交媒体，标题党】
And tell you what's good and what's not
让乐评人(网站)来告诉你什么是好歌 什么不是
And every time you drop a song,
每当你发一首新歌
They say that it's wack or it's hot
他们都会在一些无关轻重的方面对你大肆检点
And don't give a damn that it came from the heart
发自内心的说 我从不在意那些刻意想抨击打压我的人
They tear it apart like hyenas that's here for the dreamers
他们像鬣狗一样把它撕成碎片 那本是为梦想者准备
That's here for the people that know what I'm sayin'
这些话是唱给那些能与我感同身受的人们
All of you people that know what I'm sayin'
那些懂我什么意思的人一起同声大喊
**** social media
去他妈的社交媒体！
Tellin' me who I should be and just how I should rap
网络喷子试图教我做人 甚至还教我如何说唱
They always compare, they always compare me to others
他们总是喜欢拿我和别人比较
And try to pit me up against all my brothers
还试着搬弄是非让我同我好兄弟离间
Now why you think so many rappers be overdosin' at the crib?
现在你知道为什么这么多说唱歌手在家里以嗑药为生了吧？
(Overdosin' at the crib)
'Cause people just won't let 'em live
因为人们就没想过让他们存活于世【Mac Miller Lil Peep 安息】
And the public is constantly thinkin' they know 'em
公众素来都以为他们懂我们
But nobody knowin' what's goin' on inside (On inside)
但没人能明白他们内心要承受多少煎熬
And they wonder why we all hide, shit (Why we all hide, shit)
他们只眼见我们表面光鲜亮丽的活着
Maybe I'm just overthinkin'
也许我只是想太多了
Or maybe I'm just over smokin' and drinkin'
又或许我只是烟酒过度
And when I can't deal with the hate, I self-medicate
当我无法妥善处理仇恨时 我会尝试自我治疗
Sit in the corner and think of a better day
坐在角落 想想美好的一天
Maybe this bullet can help me to get away
也许这发子弹能帮我脱离痛苦
I just cannot seem to think of a better way
因为我实在想不出万全之策
Even though I know there is, that's why I keep goin'
尽管我知道会有(方法) 这也是我为什么能坚持下去的原由
That's why I keep flowin', that's why I keep perserverin'
这也是我为什么还在坚持说唱
Even when I'm hearing I'm a bitch, I'm a fag
尽管我站在这圈子里 身份是如此令人嗤之以鼻
I'm a mother****in' hypebeast,
以至于我一直拿我肤色“蹭热度”
I ain't black in the slight least
其实我一点都不黑
I ain't good enough, I should quit,
行吧我不够优秀 我应该退出
I should kill myself (Kill myself)
我选择自杀
"'Cause you'll never be Kenny"
因为你永远成为不了Kendrick Lamar(喇嘛)
"You'll never be better than Drizzy or Cole"
也不可能有Drake或者J.Cole那样的影响力
"You're losing your hair, you're too ****ing old," yeah
你在掉头发 你已经开始走下坡路了
These are the comments I'm readin' on Twitter right now
这些是我此时在推特上读到的评论【逻辑在推特中欣然接受这些言论】
That made me depressed and they pullin' me down
这些话使我万念俱灰 他们这是在把我拖下水
I'm tryna swim but I think I'ma drown
我试着游泳 但我觉得我会溺毙【这句话与Mac Miller在Come Back to Earth中的描述正好相反】
So I'ma turn my feelin' into a sound
所以我把我此刻的感受化为声音
And play it when nobody else is around
趁身旁没人时演奏它
Whenever I feel like I'm far from the ground
每当我觉得自己逐渐脱离地面
God gave me the power to battle depression, yeah run it around
是上帝给了我彻底战胜忧郁的力量
I wish I was famous, I wish I was rich
我希望我出名 希望我变得富有
I wish I could just get up out of this bitch (Out of this bitch)
同时也希望我能远离试图伤害我的任何事物
But be careful what you wish for (What you wish for)
但不要轻易许愿
'Cause it ain't everything that it's cut out to be
因为总会事与愿违
My life is good but not as good as it's boutta be
现在衣食无忧 但未来也值得被期待
'Cause I got vision, don't **** with the vision
因为有自己的远见 这才不是什么愿景
Ain't God, but I'm rich and I think that I am
不是上帝 当我变得富有时 我就是了
Do what you love and do not give a damn
做自己爱做的事 不要管别人说什么
**** all the haters you see on the 'Gram
去他的那些只会在IG上黑人的网络喷子
Just mind your own business and be a good man
管好分内之事 当个好人
Be a good boss and be a good friend
做个谦逊待人的好老板 会换位思考的好朋友
Spread your imaginations to the millions
再把你的想象力传播给数百万人
Don't worry about how to maintain all your millions
不必担心如何维持你账户上的百万美元
Just spread that positivity for the children
只需把这种积极的情绪传播给孩子们
And all the haters that's hatin', just love 'em
那些网络喷子 用爱感化他们就好
'Cause that's the only way you ever gon' kill 'em
因为这是能在思想上扼杀这些喷子的唯一方法
Know some of you feelin' (Know some of you feelin')
学会直面自己的情绪
Last but not least, put your ego on the shelf
最后 只需把你的自大抛在一边
And remember, love yourself (Love yourself)
还要记得 好好爱你自己~
Oh nah, nah (Oh, nah, nah)
Put your ego on the shelf and love yourself (Love yourself)
只需把你的自大抛在一边 好好爱你自己
Nah, nah, nah (Nah, nah, nah)
Put your ego on the shelf, and remember, love your-
只需把你的自大抛在一边 记得哦 要爱你自己~
'Member, love yourself
记得 喜欢你自己的样子！
Oh nah, nah
Put your ego on the shelf and love yourself
好好爱你自己！
Nah, nah, nah