Numbers

You count, and you can try
But I refuse to be monetized
I am coloring with pastel hues
Do they evoke something good in you
'Cause art is not a game
But I played, so I forgot
What I really wanted to paint
Five six seven eight
I swear I'm on my way
Though you would not love me today
Without the numbers telling you
Wish I could self motivate
No I don't mean self medicate
Though you would not appreciate me
Without the numbers telling you
Infinite, every second, relevant
Everything I was meant to be
Hours get devoured
We caught up inside the mystery of
Another silent night, another silent fight
Please do not disturb been gone for a minute
They offended none of my concern
Reaching for my zenith cross the finish
Everything I've earned I been bout bout it
Had some doubts anxiety I shown
I been busy counting streams amounting
Please get my off phone I my own
Hubris
'Cause art is not a game
But I found myself played
Is it what I wanted to paint?
My dreams are all a bit shy
But don't you know they come with a price
'Cause they're the ones holding the brush
But are these colors ever enough?
Five six seven eight
I swear I'm on my way
Though you would not love me today
Without the numbers telling you
Wish I could self motivate
No I don't mean self medicate
Though you would not appreciate me
Without the numbers telling you
Every second, relevant
Every minute, history
Everything I was meant to be