this is me trying
I’ve been having a hard time adjusting
我经历了一段自我调整的艰难时期
I had the shiniest wheels
我本有着最闪耀的齿轮
Now they’re rusting
而现在它们布满了锈迹
I didn’t know if you’d care if I came back
我不知道如果我回头你是否还会在乎
I have a lot of regrets about that
对此我有太多的悔意
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
将车停在路边交给看守
Could’ve followed my fears all the way down
它大概伴随了我一路的惶恐无助
And maybe I don’t quite know what to say
也许我不太清楚该说点什么
But I’m here in your doorway
但我现在就站在你的家门口
I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你知道
That this is me trying
我有在努力啊
I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你明白
That this is me trying
我有在挽回你
They told me all of my cages were mental
他们告诉我 束缚我的都是精神牢笼
So I got wasted like all my potential
我挥霍浪费了我的前途
And my words shoot to kill when I’m mad
当我怒上心头 言辞如利刃出鞘
I have a lot of regrets about that
对此我有太多的悔意
I was so ahead of the curve
我总是遥遥领先
The curve became a sphere
直到我固步自封
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here
觉得自己被所有的同学们抛在身后 于是我沦落至此
Pouring out my heart to a stranger
将我的整颗心对一个陌生人倾诉
But I didn’t pour the whiskey
但我并没有失去理智
I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你知道
That this is me trying
我有在努力啊
I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你知道
That this is me trying
我有在挽回你
At least I’m trying
起码我在努力啊
And it’s hard to be at a party
若我感到自己像一道裸露的伤口
When I feel like an open wound
我便没有心情去参加什么聚会了
It’s hard to be anywhere these days
这些时日 我甚至都不想出门
When all I want is you
当我的脑海里都是你的声影
You’re a flashback in a film reel
你就像电影故事中的一刹闪回
On the one screen in my town...
投放在我心中小镇的唯一荧幕
And I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你知道
That this is me trying
我有在努力啊
I just wanted you to know
我只是想让你知道
That this is me trying
我有在挽回你
At least I’m trying
起码我在努力啊
Written by Taylor Swift and Jack Antonoff
© 2020 TASRM Publishing, administered by Songs Of Universal, Inc. (BMI),
Sony/ATV Songs LLC / Ducky Donath Music (BMI)
All Rights Reserved. Used By Permission.
Produced by Jack Antonoff and Taylor Swift
Recorded by Laura Sisk at the Kitty Committee Studio (Los Angeles, CA), Jack Antonoff at Rough Customer Studio
(Brooklyn, NY) and Laura Sisk and Jack Antonoff at Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY) and Conway Recording
(Los Angeles, CA) Assistant Engineering by John Rooney and Jon Sher
Mixed by Serban Ghenea at Mixstar Studios (Virginia Beach, VA) Engineered by John Hanes
Mastered by Randy Merrill at Sterling Sound (New York, NY)
Live Drums, Percussion, Programming, Electric Guitars, Keyboards, Organ, Bass, Background Vocals by Jack
Antonoff at Rough Customer Studio (Brooklyn, NY) and Electric Lady Studios (New York, NY) and Conway
Recording (Los Angeles, CA)
Saxophones, Keyboards by Evan Smith at Pleasure Hill Recording (Portland, ME)
Strings by Bobby Hawk, recorded by Lorenzo Wolff at Restoration Sound (Brooklyn, NY)