i'd rather not

Can’t decide
If you ask me to make up my mind
How can I pick a side?
At night, looking up at the sky
But I can’t seem to find you
Maybe you know me too well
I’d rather not lie to myself
And this room feels like a cell
Not hard to tell, it’s not hard to tell
That I am in deep sorrow
Will I see you tomorrow?
But sadly you’ll go as the sun goes down
Look, I’m sorry if this is inappropriate
I mean I don’t wanna wait til it’s too ****ing late
Said you love the rain, will it wash away the pain?
Things that we relate, I love the way you call my name
But it’s time to wake up, though you’re my favourite
This is not how we’re supposed to end it
Out there it’s a forest full of bandits
Man it hurts seeing you leave
Did I cross the line this time?
Just wanna make sure if you’re fine
If you’re mine…
No I’m not thinking right
No I’m not thinking right
Maybe you know me too well
I’d rather not lie to myself
And this room feels like a cell
Not hard to tell, it’s not hard to tell
That I am in deep sorrow
Will I see you tomorrow?
But sadly you’ll go as the sun goes down
Sun goes down, moon comes up
If I ask could you stay for a while?
I want love, but what is love?
Don’t know how I should keep you around