Wonder If You Wonder
Know it's been a long time, I hear you're doing just fine
时间良久，听说你最近过的幸福美满
Graduated, got a job and you've been working a grind
从毕业到工作，你从未放松自己
You're never looking behind
时间朝前 从不回头
I know you never found me crossing your mind
我自知我已不会再浮现于你的脑海
But I'd be lying if you didn't cross mine
可如果你从未出现在我的生命我也许还能欺骗自己
From time to time, I see some of your pictures online
自始至终，我在网络上看着你分享的照片
"Kindest Regards" was hard, I left my heart on the line
也许难以真心待人，我只好隐藏自己的内心（Kindest Regards也为Witt Lowry的一首单曲）
I wrote a song for you, took a couple months of my time
花费数月时间，只为给你写一首温柔的歌
How can you praise him for flowers and a bottle of wine?
可你怎能因为鲜花美酒就对他赞赏有加
You'll never be mine, remember the time I came to see you?
你从不为我倾心，是否还记得那次看你时？
I thought it would just be you, but there's twelve other people
我满心欢喜地盼望着你，可门后还藏着12个其他人
You see, there was never "We", so we could never be a sequel
看吧你从来不说你和别人在一起，所以我和你永远难成续集
Thought it might've been a date that day, did anything to see you
我放下一切为了见你，只期盼一个浪漫约会
But I'm nothing more than nothing, you're bluffing saying you care
可在你心里我连空气都不如，还欺骗我说你依然在意我
Our only real connection is memories that we share
你我之间只剩下曾经的记忆能维持联系
I would never try to blame you, cause blaming you isn't fair
可我从来没想过怪你，因为这对你不公平
Not that you care, the stress is really starting to wear
可你仍然对我不屑一顾，不堪像枷锁一般缠绕着我
And in my music, I took our story and I used it
我把它都写进我的歌词，让音乐承载我们的过往
Don't care how you were feeling, I'm busy dropping my new ****
我也开始学着不去关心你的想法，忙着发布自己的新作品
Know people gonna love it, I'm buzzing after I do it
我知道粉丝们会喜欢我的音乐，可我总感到脑袋嗡嗡作响
I'm gifted with the curse of honesty and the truth is
事实如此，我天生就不会说谎
I loved you more than words, I didn't know how to prove it
我对你的爱溢于言表可我却不知如何表达
Can't tell you that in person, but always could through my music
没有当面告白的勇气，只能在音乐中泰然自若
Everyone who said they cared isn't there, now I'm confused
曾经对你表达关爱的人如今劳燕分飞
I'm broken and bruised, lonely, open, empty, and stupid, and still I
我如今伤痕累累，孑然一身，内心空洞，脑袋迟钝，可我依然...
I thought I had it all figured out
可我依然认为我能解决这一切纷乱
No, you would never fall for me now
但你从不为我倾心
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
You can hear the pain in my sound
也许你还能从我的声音中听出些许痛苦
Laughed as I fell to the ground
大笑着当我坠落于地
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
And I can't lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn't want me
我无法说谎，当你说你不需要我时真是令人伤心
To know I never tried is what continues to haunt me
指责我不勇敢尝试的声音一直萦绕着我
Every pic I see is you and him, his Twitter trying to taunt me
每一张照片都是你和他，他的Twitter甚至还试着嘲讽我
You think I let it go? This is old and exhausting
你觉得我还能轻易放下吗？这些事真是又绵长又磨人
Some offspring, family in a house is what I thought about
我只是想要有一群可爱的孩子和一个温暖的家庭
Sometimes I wonder if he'll get that now
我有时怀疑他是否能给你这一切
See, we know that you picked a different path
现在世人皆知，你我分道扬镳
Me, I picked a different route
我只好走回我的独木桥
And I can't help but laugh at how this all played out
无法将自己从伤痛中抽离，当一切玩完时候我只好放声大笑
You're over me now, I'm hoping you found only the best
你就想一颗流星划过我的头顶，如今只能祝福你找到幸福
Remember when we used to rap that Kanye West?
还记得当年我们跟着侃爷的歌饶舌
"Graduation" in rotation 'cause you liked that best
保持着《Graduation》循环因为这是你的挚爱（Graduation为kanye的一张专辑，同时与前面graduated呼应）
And back then I didn't want you, now look, I'm a mess
那时我们年轻懵懂，如今看来我已经一团糟
I open my chest and through me you can see no spine
我挺起胸膛面对一切，你能看到在我身后空无一人
My profile pic and lyrics I've been hiding behind
我隐藏我的个人资料和歌词
It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find
羡慕你找到了我一直苦苦寻找的真爱
The only you I love's the one that I create in my mind, and still I
我对你的爱恋只是我脑海中的一个幻想，可我依然...
I thought I had it all figured out
我依然以为我已经弄清楚一切
No, you would never fall for me now
可你从不为我倾心
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
You can hear the pain in my sound
也许你还能从我的声音中听出些许痛苦
Laughed as I fell to the ground
大笑着当我坠落于地
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
I thought I had it all figured out
我以为我能解决这一切纷扰
No, you would never fall for me now
可你从不为我倾心
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
You can hear the pain in my sound
也许你还能从我的声音中听出些许痛苦
Laughed as I fell to the ground
大笑着当我坠落于地
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
不知道你是否明白我不再陪伴你身旁
I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now
我亦不知你是否明白我的所作所为
I often wonder if you ever did care
我总是茫然你是否真正关心过我
I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there
我不知道我的脑海中为何自始至终只有你一人
See, we were friends, but that felt more like pretend
看吧我们曾是好友，尽管那看起来更像是虚张声势
This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear
这是糟糕的一年，一切都清楚明白，我对我们之间的一切恐惧都浮于水面
The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated
曾经的我们是挚友还能让我满足些许爱慕之情
And nowadays our conversation is, "Hey, happy belated"
如今一切都已过去我们只剩下说：“嘿，迟来的幸福”
And every song I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it
我都清楚你对我曾经写给你的歌感到厌恶
Because you realize that you never felt the same when you played it
因为你从来不能感受到被别人玩弄时是如何的绝望
You never cared if I made it, that's why I waited, you know me
你也从不在意我是否有所起色，那也正式我苦苦等候的原因，你知道的
See, all the love that I've been getting through my phone feels phony
看吧，我能从手机上得到的喜爱都是虚无缥缈的
I rhyme a couple words together, every girl want to blow me
我随便压上几个韵女孩们就能把我吹成神仙
We're in a world full of people, yet I'm feeling so lonely
我们都生活在充满人类的世界，却只有我还时常感到孤独
If only I could tell myself there's plenty fish in the sea
我还能欺骗自己有许多鱼游弋海洋之中
But see, the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies, and greed
可海洋中满是吃人鲨鱼，虚伪孔雀鱼以及无尽的贪婪
And as I find myself drowning while I'm fighting to breathe
当我在夹缝中生存挣扎着呼吸时，我却发现我正在被水淹没
I realize that I'm in love with what I thought we could be
直到此时我才明白我心中虚无缥缈的爱恋只是我的一厢情愿罢了