I'm Trying

She said i'm not pointing fingers
He said yes you are
'cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
If i told you i'd been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcoholic's word
I can't change what's done is done
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i
Don't curse myself and all my sins
And i need you to hold on to
While this part of me is dying
And though i haven't kicked the demons
That haunt me
I'm trying
I'm trying
She sat down on the floor
And said i wish i was stronger
Right now i feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you
Believe what's held you has freed you
And i hate these doubts
That keep on coming back
My parent's think i'm crazy
For staying here this long
But there's nothing more i want for us
Than to prove to them they're wrong
I don't want to be afraid
I don't want to think you're lying
And though i haven't found the faith
That i need
I'm trying
I'm trying
He asked do you want me to leave
'cause if you do you know i will
But she said much to his disbelief
No i love you still
Oh i love you still
He said i don't know why i've been the fool
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i
Don't curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said i haven't been the man i want to be
But i'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying believe me
I'm trying