Solace

All my life
I've waited for the time when
I could build up enough courage to blow my goddamn brains out.
Life is nothing but pain.
I don't want to live it.
I just want to die now.
Tear the flesh from my bones.
Stuff me in a box and let the worms feed on me.
Life is just a cruel hoax of nature, because nothing lasts forever.
The taste of life is torture.
Take this mortal coil.
There is nothing inside.
Why do we have to die?
Why were we ever born?
I don't want to live if
I can't live forever.