Outcast

When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own,
my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own,
to me I'm an outcast.
It's been a long time coming, I'm still here I'm still breathing,
I've spent a long time running through each season to season.
I'm your prime example if you can't do it, so give it up,
I'm your prime example cause I've been through it so listen up.
It was deeper than just doing music and drug abusing,
It's about your life and how you use it, the road you chose it,
Determines your every step and movement, lord knows I tried, knows I'm defied,
It's hard to run a race that I know I 'm behind in. Know that I'm grinding,
Look at life through my eyes, it ain't as easy as it looks.
Nobody knows the blood and tears that it took.
Here's an expected turn of aggression, that turned to obsession,
Turned to depression, through all that you think I learned all my lessons.
I ain't even scratching the surface, I ain't even half way,
It ain't even about the *****es, or the money I've made.
In fifty years when I look back on my past,
All that I want is for my daughters to be proud of their dad, what else do I have.
When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own,
my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own,
all that I wanted was a chance to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong,
I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone,
Tell me you feel, But I never thought I would really be the man,
to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me, See I'm an outcast.
Now momma always said it would be worth it, through all the pain and suffering,
Through all the rain and hurting, nobodies perfect.
I'm certain that if I left this earth, today they would miss me,
But at my funeral how long would the list be before I'm history.
An only child with no brothers or sisters, so often me and momma would pack up,
The Dots and moving often is exhausting, back and forth in them section 8 apartments,
There's only so much you can take , before it breaks your conscience and changes to nonsense.
Now there's been times in life where I feel flawless, I'd have to say those,
Were the times where my ears would hear whispers, from other angels.
Taking actions from other angles, there's always a gamble,
Always a handful, I was raised to show the game what I stand for.
Can't nobody take this moment from you, there's nowhere to run to,
So force them to make the decision to hate you or love you.
That's the moment that your fate comes to a crossroads,
And God knows, I've had my share of choices to make with obstacles off-road.
When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own,
my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own ,
all I wanted was to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong,
I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone,
tell me you feel, but I never thought I would really be the man,
to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me,See I'm an outcast.
With every piece of sand that's in my hourglass, and with every breathe I take another hour pass.
I tell myself it don't matter, I'll let them chitter chatter,
Live with the laughter, get what I'm after, turn the page of my book.
It's another chapter, I'm after a bigger dream just to capture the bigger things,
That have actually came between all the people that disagree,
With the typical human being that never makes up excuse's.
But takes the breaks and heartaches the way that he slaves to make two cents,
He's a nuisance but they still follow his shoe prints,
Till the day that he chooses to break away from the pack, and the past is useless.
Give it everything you got and never settle for less again,
And they told me while growing up that success is the best revenge.
I'm blessed to have walked the broken road,From student to teacher,
When it finally evens out and your through it, it's much sweeter.
I would never take it for granted, never out lash but outlast the struggles,
That have now passed, label me as an outcast.
When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own,
my own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my own,
all I wanted was to be accepted in life, so tell me if I'm wrong,
I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone,
tell me you feel, but I never thought I would really be the man,
to grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me,See I'm an outcast .