COLLATERAL

Holding back a frown
Can't look down
'Cause the room is spinning
Shakey 'til she comes, I'd feel dumb
If you knew I'm missing (I'm not )
Mexico again, Portland wind
And your stupid grinning
Hope it's not too late, had to wait
I didn't have it in me (What's wrong?)
This is my attempt to amend
My past actions, I was
Trapped inside my head
Seeing red
Feeding gas to fire (F*ck off)
Haven't made it out
But I found solace in denial
You'll remember this
What we missed
It won't take a while (Come on)
I been tryna find peace ever since you left
(Insane , I'm so gone now)
I been tryna find me ever since you left
(Insane, I'm so gone now)
I been so alone now
Hands all on my throat now
I been off anxiety
F*ck, at least I know now
Everybody knows now
Keep me comatose, now
I'm just tryna find
What you find
'Fore you come
Back in my life
I don't wanna change
So I blame people closest to me
They don't get the half that I have
My part needs improving (I know)
You see clearly now
Shaved your brows
Started over smoothly
I just built these walls
Missed your calls
Put my heart in stupid (I choked)
That's not your black shirt
It was hers
You'd look better in it
We sat right here, too
It was new
Nothing ever did it (So close)
Maybe it's my nerves or a curse
They would never get it
Head down to your shoes
Through and through
You were always different (my own)
I been tryna find peace ever since you left
(Insane, I'm so gone now)
I beentryna find me ever since you left
(Insane, I'm so gone now)
I been so alone now
Hands all on my throat now
I been off anxiety
F*ck , at least I know now
Everybody knows now
Keep me comatose, now
I'm just tryna find
What you find
'Fore you come
Back in my life