demons

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When I think of you in the city,
當我在城市喧囂中想起你
The sight of you among the sites.
在林立樓宇中的驚鴻一瞥
I get this sudden sinking feeling,
猛然讓我感受到
Of a man about to fly.
飄飄欲仙的不祥預感
Never kept me up before,
從未讓我如此高昂
Now Ive been awake for days.
而現在我振奮不已夜不成寐
I cant fight it anymore,
我對此束手無策不再苦苦掙扎
Im going through an awkward phase.
我將身陷難關
I am secretly in love with,
我偷偷地愛上
Everyone that I grew up with.
與我共成長的每個人
Do my crying underwater,
在水下垂死哭泣
I cant get down any farther.
我真的不能再往下沉溺了
All my drowning friends can see,
所有同我沉溺的朋友可以見證
Now there is no running from it.
現在我不再逃避現實
Its become the crux of me,
這成了我的癥結
I wish that I could rise above it.
我希望我能跨越難關
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But I stay down,
但我依舊墮落
With my demons.
同我內心的惡魔
I stay down,
持續向下
With my demons.
同我所有的邪念
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Passing buzzards in the sky,
灰暗空中成群飛過的禿鷹
Alligators in the sewers.
在陰濕地底潛伏的短嘴鱷
I dont even wonder why,
我甚至從不去思考
Hide among the unbelievers.
如何在眾多異教徒中藏匿
Huddle with them all night long,
與他們一同蜷縮度過漫長黑夜
The worried talk to god goes on.
向上帝的懺悔依舊繼續
I sincerely tried to love it,
誠誠懇懇地嘗試著去愛上現在的一切
Wish that I could rise above it.
祈禱著自己能重見陽光
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But I stay down,
但我卻選擇沉溺
With my demons.
同我內心的惡魔
I stay down,
持續墮落
With my demons.
同我所有的憂鬱
I stay down,
持續往下
With my demons.
同我所有的憂慮
I stay down,
無限墜落
With my demons.
同我所有的罪惡
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Can I stay here? I can sleep
能收留我在這嗎？
On the floor
我願意躺在地上換來一次小憩
Paint the blood and hang the palms,
在門上漆上新鮮的血液
On the door.
並懸上雙掌
Do not think Im going places anymore,
不要以為我會安於現狀
Wanna see the sun come up above New York.
想要親眼看見太陽從紐約的地平線上升起
Oh, everyday I start so great,
每天我涅槃重生
Then the sunlight dips.
然後最後一絲陽光也消失不見
Less Ive learned,
大腦越是空洞
The more I see the pythons and the limbs.
越是目睹怪誕事物
Do not know whats wrong with me,
不知道為何我錯事連連
Sours in the cup.
喝下杯中的酸水
When I walk into a room,
當我走進房間
I do not light it up.
不去開燈
F*ck.
就讓我陷入無限的黑暗
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So I stay down,
所以我選擇墮落

同我內心的惡魔
With my demons.
接著墮落
I stay down,
同我所有的邪念
With my demons.
持續墮落
I stay down,
同我犯下的罪
With my demons.
跌入深淵
I stay down,
同我內心的惡魔
With my demons.
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