"will not confess"

Gone are the days of the glee
I trust no one cuz they plottin on me
Between my teeth where Im keeping the piece
Push me more Imma squeeze and release
I remember being able to hold relationships
Now I'm broken, lost
I cant trust no bitch
Cuz my heart is sawed in half
Left it ripped
I cant see what you see in me
Im all pissed
Friends dont mean shit to me
Turn to my enemies
What have I done to deserve all this agony
I cannot speak cuz I'm 'fraid that I'll lose you
And I cant afford to be broken
Dont choose to
But I need to feel something or else I'll be nothing
I border on crumbling
I cant fall asleep cuz I weep and I stare at the ceiling remince on feelings and all my mistakes
Im not a mess
I feel this pain in my chest when I think of the past all depressed
Will not confess
I swear I'm feeling just fine I just need some more time to assess
What happened to us
What happened to me
I cant remember what made me happy
Gone is the me that was filling with glee
All my past has destroyed what I have come to be
Im not a mess
I feel this pain in my chest when I think of the past all depressed
Will not confess
I swear I'm feeling just fine I just need some more time to assess
What happened to us
What happened to me
I cant remember what made me happy
Gone is the me that was filling with glee
All my past has destroyed what I have come to be
Peacefully I weep inside my head
I peeked into the future saw myself there lying dead
Whats the ****ing purpose of anything that I said
Everything is pointless cuz the futures drowned in red
I figured that I'd I have a couple friends
I figured wrong
Now I gotta make all my amends
Figured all the problems 'd be gone
But the thing only gone
Is my will to continue on this planet living on
Im not a mess
I feel this pain in my chest when I think of the past all depressed
Will not confess
I swear I'm feeling just fine I just need some more time to assess
What happened to us
What happened to me
I cant remember what made me happy
Gone is the me that was filling with glee
All my past has destroyed what I have come to be