Jordan

Living like animals with no real shame.
如同不知羞恥的低等動物一般生活
Like creatures that exist that God didnt create.
如同上帝從未創造的異物一般存在
My body speaks to me and I understand.
身體傳達訊息這些給我而我也明白
It makes me say to it, 'your wish is my command.'
讓我不禁說“你的願望我都會努力去實現”
Like feeling tired but wanting to stay awake,
就比如心力疲憊卻願頭腦清醒
or spending money to cover up a mistake.
或是花錢掩蓋過錯
Like running fast but always taking long breaks.
就好比健步如飛卻時而長做歇息
Just like the feelings that she said she didnt fake.
就像她說她從未假意卻也不曾真心
I want to see the best version of me.
我願看見我最好的一面
The me that I know is not my friend at all.
我知曉的自己完全與我形同陌路
A man can trust himself to spend his life away.
那樣一個我信賴自己以荒廢生命
Trust himself to drink till theres a smile on his face.
任由自己飲酒直至久違笑容浮於臉龐
A drink can trust a man to have another sip.
而杯酒下肚便讓人忍不住又小抿幾口
A man can trust a sip to stop his trembling lips.
卻堅信著小酌一番可止住嘴唇的顫抖
Like reading half and never open it again.
就如書讀一半而後不再翻閱
Saying I was there when I aint ever been.
說著我曾來至此地實際上卻並沒有
How I feel about the way God taunts.
上帝嘲弄我的感受我難以言說
The same is the way I give my body what it wants.
同樣難以言說的還有我對自己聽之任之
I want to see the way I want to see.
我願見到我願見到的局面
Im all alone.
我孤身一人
Im not my friend at all.
自己也非自己的友人
Im dead to me.
我心已死
Im just a body.
只剩軀殼
Is a man really alive if he cant control his own life?
若人無法掌控自己的生活那他還真實存活嗎