I Feel So Tired

l feel so tired
l always do
l wake up
But then l cant chose
Do l need to get up
Or lay in bed
Sometimes I think
That Im better off dead
l dont want no help
Ill tell myself
Go back to sleep
But it never ends well
Times are so slow
lm in a cloud
These thoughts are swarming
And its getting too loud
(These thoughts are swarming.And its getting too loud)
Ive been tired so long
lve made a mess
Of my life
Yeah baby Im ****ing a wreck
All the nights
That Ill spend yeah wide awake
And if Im being honest
Babe Im not okay
l dont know
lf Ill ever understand
The things in this life
That tell me I should be a man
Cause my heart
Yeah Its just way to soft
Throw me away
Like they dont know what Ive got
Tired of all the times that I cant take back
Tired of the lies I just wanna hear the facts
Tired of everything Im getting too sad
I dont wanna feel all these feelings come back
I dont wanna let go of my own heart
But here lately all l do is fall apart
Wanna take my car and drive away too far
But itll never be far enough for these scars