I saw your mom at the grocery store
She texted me afterwards
I felt like falling on the floor
She said, 'I miss you, hope youre doing well
And I wish we saw you more'
And I knew that was a lie
Cause you havent talked to me in at least six months (Months)
I thought that I was healed but now Im open like a cut
Cause I saw your mom at the grocery store
And she asked me how I was
I shouldve told her the truth
That I dont know who I am after you
And I cant stand to look at that fxcking pair of
Shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh, I, feel like Im split in two
But I asked about your sister instead
Cause thats what nice girls do
Driving home, the roads all look the same to me
I pass your house, I block out all the memories
And I dont miss you, I dont wish you well
I wish you felt what I had felt
She has your eyes, she looks like you
I shouldve told her the truth
That I dont know who I am after you
And I cant stand to look at that fxcking pair of
Shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh, I, feel like Im split in two
I shouldve let her know that I deleted all the playlists on my phone
Cause every time that song plays I just wanna call you
So, I meditate now, but the silence is almost just as loud
Oh, I feel like Im split in two
But I ask about your sister
Oh, I asked about your sister
I shouldve told her the truth
Ive been terrified, for months, of seeing you
Every white car makes my heart stop
I cut my hair, I meditate
Everything, but change my name
Oh, I, Ill never be the same