FDYM interlude

Lately i been thinking on how I sound hella vibrant
But when it ain't a mic involved man i sound hella lifeless
I'm adopting aliases I hope that you find them
And find joy besides career success , with someone that you vibe with
Cabinets of spices and some rices
But i cannot pull through and stay committed to a diet
I need therapy but can't afford it
Disassociate in real life so i dont think its important, they're like uh
**** do you mean?
I came to USA just to pursue a degree
And hopefully be someone bigger than anyone you know in less of the time that I'vе been
The feeling of putting my soul in the world to have pеople say I pulled em out of the deep
I only know what you feel cause I'm in it from time to time, I am not bleeding to bleed
**** do you mean?
You want me to blow up and I deserve more than somebody else dream?
**** do you mean?
You do not know me you just know a fragment of what you perceive
You go and pay me no mind like im fine and hit listen while I cannot even get sleep
I cannot even wake up without seeing my numbers and thinking what I couldve been
**** do you mean?
I cannot even let music be what it could be
This could be 100 bars of me feeling myself feeling something for once feelin free
My conscience would not let that happen I got me some loans and a family that I gotta feed
All cuz of music I'm really, grateful I just want like me the way you like me
And on some days it get easy, and on somedays it just don't, but slowly i'm finding my peace
And on some days it get easy,and onsomeday sit just Don’他, but slowly i’M finding沒有peace<比如>let麼dome<比如>let麼dome<比如>