good at pretending

GOOD AT PRETENDING:
didn't know you like I thought I did,
wish I never let you in,
wish I didn't say all that,
time to take you off the pedestal just for you to text me back,
im sinking deeper, im seeing clearer
been stressing out, all I think about is, pointing the fingers at whats in the mirror , i, I got a lot to figure out
who knew I'd wind up broken hearted with my feelings hurt, who knew id end up just a random guy that you ignore,
i barely knew you yet i made you into something more, maybe I got what I deserve ,
im just so good at pretending v2:
i keep a journal full with might of beens, never in the present tense,
love to let it hurt like this,
maybe I should just be celibate,
take a bunch of sedatives just for the hell of it