Joining You (LiveUnplugged)

dear dar(lin)
your mom (my friend)
left a message on my machine
she was frantic
saying you were talking crazy
that you wanted to do away with yourself
i guess she thought id be a perfect resort
because weve had this inexplicable connection since our youth
and yes theyre in shock they are panicked
you and your chronic them and their drama
you this embarrassment us in the middle of this delusion

if we were our bodies
if we were our futures
if we were our defenses id be joining you
if we were our culture
if we were our leaders
if we were our denials id be joining you

i remember vividly a day years ago
we were camping you knew more than you thought you should know
you said ' i dont ever want to be brainwashed'
and you were mindboggling you were intense
you were uncomfortable in your own skin
you were thirsty but mostly you were beautiful

if we were our nametags
if we were our rejections
if we were our outcomes id be joining you
if we were our indignities
if we were our successes
if we were our emotions id be joining you

you and i were like 4 year olds
we want to know why and how come about everything
we want to reveal ourselves at will and speak our minds
and never talk small and be intuitive
and question mightily and find god my tortured beacon
we need to find like-minded companions

if we were their condemnations
if we were their projections
if we were our paranoias id be joining you
if we were our incomes
if we were our obsessions
if we were our afflictions id be joining you

we need reflection we need a really good memory
feel free to call me a little more often