Horrible Dream

Suffering from bitterness
Not feeling so right
Uncontrolled-mismanaged hate
No one is right
Differences unforeseen
Bound to lead
At failed attempts to do something constructively
Diffuse it
Destroy it
Abuse it and enjoy it
This horrible dream
A horrible nightmare
A wonderful dream
A wonderful nightmare
This toxic mind provoking all hostility
Frail on the outer side, anxiety
Afraid of what
Im capable of damaging
Manifestation of a mental disease
Diffuse it
Destroy it
Abuse it and enjoy it
This horrible dream
A horrible nightmare
A wonderful dream
A wonderful nightmare
I cannot control this
Why cant
I do something?
Why cant
I do anything?
Why cant
I do something
To stop the hostility?