i don't understand

I used to try and understand in everything
Back in the beginning
Oh i keep on winning now
No light to hold me down and i stay in
I lose my mind it's in my sleep
Though i can't ever no i cannot see it
Why do i always have to be here
Oh why i tell myself again
No i never i don't understand
You wait for me, all night
And i don't even try
I wait for your lovin' to wake my eye
Go straight for the feeling to come alive
Leave them to call, somebody says
Leave with my love i left on your stand
I left from the beginning
Cause i keep on winning now