my reward

Gave up my loving for all that I'm hating
Hating the loving I gave
Oh terrified by the horrible lies
Lies the evil we've made
Wake up! I'm sweating, I 'm burning, I'm dreading
Dreading the life that I hate
There was a time when at least I was winning
Living a life that's okay
Here's my reward for your life
That you gave me
Let me love you
Fear and blame you
Let me love you
Scar and burn you
Started defending, was seeing the ending
Started defending, was seeing the ending
Finished before it began
Came in deceiving, left here believing
I am a terrible man
Wake up! I'm sweating, I'm burning, I'm dreading
Dreading this horrible trend
Now that I see that your heart is for loving
Why did I break it again?