Never Cry Again

Although it's hard to say this
I will never cry again
I look up to the stars
and think of you
But I promise
I will never cry again
Because I know you'd
rather see me smile
As i'm looking out my window
sitting on the pain
as the rain gives me info
little bit of clarity among the despair
miss the ones that I love
hope i'll see you there
learned this life ain't fair
so why should I gloom
sitting my room
feeling like i'm back in the womb
closed off from the outside
undeveloped in the mind
waiting to escape
cuz life is far from benign
wonder should I keep trying
I rather be flying
above the clouds
without a care no fear of dying
you only lying to yourself thinking
that you worthless
then throw a fake smile
on the surface
masking the tears over years
you been crying internal
but there's a light at the end of
the tunnel got me a thermal
for when the days gets colder
my heart stays warm
in order to see the sun
gotta last through the storm
Although it's hard to say this
I will never cry again
I look up to the stars
and think of you
But I promise
I will never cry again
Because I know you'd
rather see me smile
See we learn from mistakes
gain clarity from bruises
and scrapes
couple rips in my drapes
from tryna hold on
while life pulling me back
to the place I belong
it's the same old song
the record on repeat
losing sleep feeling like
I got needles in my feet
every step feel a sharp pain
running through my core
losing this fight to life
the blood I can't ignore
while it trickles on the floor
how did I get here
Said i'll never return
learned to discern fear
but still it snuck in
so God can you help me again
my back against the wall
satan never want you to win
but can't give in cuz
when the curtain closes
I want to be alive
and able to smell the roses
then share em
with my loved ones life is party
give me plus 1
on the guest list I ain't done
Although it's hard to say this
I will never cry again
I look up to the stars
and think of you
But I promise
I will never cry again
Because I know you'd
rather see me smile