Talk to Me Before I Die

It's hard to feel, easy to kill
Hard to deal, easy to give up
Hard to build, easy to break down
Ease up, when the fees up, put my feet up in the Fiat
Let my brain rot, feel the brain job, in my tank top
And I can’t stop and I can't move
When I wake up and I break up
And I say stuff I was never meant to say to they, like
I realized that I demonized you when I blamed my problems on you
It was always me, I'm uncomfortable in my skin when I’m not with you
I feel like I'm walkin' in circles, what's my purpose?
Brand new whips and purses
Beggin' my baby "don't hurt me like I hurt you," yuh
Sing to me a lullaby, talk to me before I die
Question my emotions, I'm so sick from all the notion
And ending is so easy, maybe I'll end up on TV
I can’t seem to find the meaning
I can’t seem to find the meaning
I wanna feel alive, I do it to these lies, I do
I look at you and tell you that I feel alright
Don't wanna hurt this way, do I deserve to stay?
Do my apologies mean anything to you today? (Yuh)
It’s hard to feel alive
It's easy to wanna die
It's hard to look at my reflection
Easy to grip that Smith N' Wesson
Easy to **** that bitch, no question
Easy to get my **** hard
It’s easy to get real pissed off
It's hard to quit my day job
It's easy to pop pills, get meals
Get ****ed up tucked under covers
Never leaving my dojo where I stay solo
Where I feel safest and I'm less anxious
Begging for someone to save me
'Cause most of the homies around me forsake me, lately
Creepin' on me when the sun go down, so shaded
No surprise it don't faze me, yuh
Sing to me a lullaby, talk to me before I die
Question my emotions, I'm so sick from all the notion
And ending is so easy, maybe I'll end up on TV
I can't seem to find the meaning
I can't seem to find the meaning
I wanna feel alive, I do it to these lies, I do
I look at you and tell you that I feel alright
Don't wanna hurt this way, do I deserve to stay?
Do my apologies mean anything to you today?