Tobacco In My Sheets

Theres tobacco in my sheets
我的被單上放著我的煙
I know you won't be proud
我知道這並不是什麼可引以為傲的東西
You always taught me not to be the kind of woman that I seem to be becoming now
如今的我成為了你當時萬遍教導我不要成為的那種人
Theres an empty bag of something
空空如也的包包
On the table by my bed
靜靜地躺在床邊的桌子上
Yeah I know you wouldnt like it
我知道你很反感
But its the only thing that gets him out my head
但這是我可以將他徹底忘記的唯一方法

媽媽，我希望你可以理解
Oh mama, I hope you understand
即使爸爸把你的心傷得支離破碎我依舊會牽著你的手走到最後
Cause when daddy broke your heart I held your hand
我不是癮君子也不是酒鬼，我只是有著天馬行空的幻想
Im not a smoker or a drinker, just a crazy over thinker
我還會磕點藥
And I need a little medicine
我知道你身心疲憊但我希望你諒解我
I hope your broken heart it understands
有個陌生人

輕叩我家門
There's someone that I hardly know
即使那個人儀表堂堂可卻依舊比不上他的萬分之一
Knocking at my door
如果要我實話實說
He's a pretty good distraction but he's not even a fraction of the one before
我會開始懼怕現在的自己
And if I' m being honest
我是真的不想讓你失望
I'm starting to scare myself
但除了你之外我已無人可傾訴
Know I hate to disappoint you
媽媽，我希望你可以諒解
But if I can't tell you I can't tell nobody else
我曾看見你在爸爸出走後無數個夜晚偷偷哭泣

我不是癮君子也不是酒鬼，我只是熱衷於天馬行空地幻想
Oh mama, I hope you understand
我偶爾也會磕點藥
Cause I watched you hiding tears when daddy ran
我知道你身心疲憊但我還是希望你可以理解我
Im not a smoker or a drinker just a crazy over thinker
讓你失望抑鬱我真的很抱歉
And I need a little medicine
曾經的你可以與現在的我感同身受嗎？
I hope your broken heart it understands
你可以告訴我怎麼解脫嗎？

你可以將我救出這片苦海嗎？
I swear I’m sorry if I’m letting you down
我嘗盡一切方法卻都是徒勞
Did you ever feel how I'm feeling now?
媽媽，我是真的想不通
And can you tell me how you found a way out?
你是如何獨身一人將哥哥拉扯成人
Can you be my *******?
你是不是曾也和我一樣熱衷吞雲吐霧伶仃大醉
Cause god I tried everything else
做做白日夢

或者偷偷磕點藥
Oh mama, I just don't understand
我由衷希望你可以理解我，媽媽
How you still raised up my brother to a man
Were you a smoker or a drinker
Or a crazy over thinker?
Did you need a little medicine?
I hope your broken heart it understands