self sabotage

I've been climbing on this ladder for months
好幾個月我一直在攀爬這個梯子（長久以來我渴望著救贖）
Time has worn it down now I'm breaking the rungs
長久下來它已經損壞了所以我折斷了橫檔（一切都是徒勞我最終放棄了）
City smog blackening my lungs
城市的煙霧侵蝕著肺
I'm used to shitty days
我習慣了糟糕的日子
This stuff just isn't fun anymore
一切變得索然無味
Where did all the time go
時間到底去往了何處
Spent it with my eyes closed
時間在閉眼時悄然離去
Spent it with some fake friends
時間在和虛假朋友廝混時被揮霍
Dissing ain't a typo
污衊詆毀可不是小錯誤
Now my pockets fat
現在我很富有
They gonna need some lipo'
而他們需要錢
I always spend it fast
所以我總是消耗地很快
I make it in a night though
不過一個晚上就花完了
Self sabotage
自我毀滅墮落放縱
I'm with my entourage
與我身邊的人在一起
Cold shoulder
淡漠無情
I don't really wanna talk
我不想再提
And T don't wanna stop
也不想終止下來
Until I'm on the top
在我抵達頂點之前
Don't want another thought
不想再去想
Of when my bones will rot
我的骨頭何時會腐爛
Self sabotage
自我毀滅墮落放縱
I'm with my entourage
和我身邊的人一起
Cold shoulder
冷漠處世
I don't really wanna talk
我真的不想談別的
And I don't wanna stop
我不會停止下來
Until I'm on the top
在我抵達高潮前
Don 't want another thought
不願再去想
Of when my bones will rot
何時我會化作灰燼
I need excitement
我需要激情
Something that could pump my blood around
需要一些能讓我感到熱血沸騰的事
I've been fighting with myself every time I'm down
每當沮喪時都在與自己對抗
And I turned blue right at the bottom
越沮喪越低沉墜落至谷底
Man you let me drown now they ask me
你讓我感到溺亡般窒息
Why I never bring that girl around
現在他們問我
Done with that phase
為什麼我身邊沒有那個女孩了
I ain't coming back aye
那段時期已經結束了
But the pain stays
我不會重蹈覆轍不會
Tatted with the sad face
但痛苦依然存在
Sit back look at all the damage
悲傷佈滿面容
I never knew I caused it
淡然注視著毀壞
But I saw it when you vanished
我從未自知是我造就了一切
I really hurt myself for you
但在你銷聲匿跡後我發現了
I cry I feel I'm just like you
我的確因你傷害了自己
And I killed my body
淚流不止感覺我只鍾情於你
And I killed my brain
自我摧殘著身體
I'm a bag of bones baby
自我摧殘著思維
Walking in the rain (I call it )
彷彿是脆弱不堪的孩童
Self sabotage
在雨中踱步(呼喊著）
I'm with my entourage
自我毀滅墮落下去
Cold shoulder
我與身邊的人一起
I don't really wanna talk
冷漠置之
And I don't wanna stop
我真的不想再說了
Until I'm on the top
也不願停止一切
Don't want another thought
直到我抵達頂端
Of when my bones will rot
我不願再去想
Self sabotage
我會怎樣腐爛
I'm with my entourage
自我毀滅墮落放縱
Cold shoulder
與我身邊的人一起
I don't really wanna talk
漠然置之
And I don't wanna stop
無話可說
Until I'm on the top
不願停止
Don't want another thought
直到我抵達頂峰
Of when my bones will rot
不願再去想