Damien echo老師death row letter, year 16 12

Today,the guards made me bleed again
今天，守衛又讓我鮮血淋漓
They chained my feet so tight
他們緊緊束縛住我的雙腳
I could barely move
我幾乎動彈不得
I bleed through my socks,
我的血液滲透襪子
last month it was my left ankle,
上個月傷的是我的左腳踝
today it was the right
今天是右腳踝
When I wash,
當我清洗時
the soap burns like fire,
肥皂像火一樣灼燒傷口
but I have to keep my ankles clean
但我不得不這樣去保持腳踝的清潔
because I don't have any alcohol,
因為我沒有酒精
or peroxide,
也沒有安眠藥
nothing to kill a bacteria or infections,
無法殺死細菌或預防感染
and this place is filthy
這裡很髒
I can't remember what it's like
我不再記得
to walk as a human being anymore.
作為人類行走的感覺了
My cell is so small
我的牢房太小了
that I can only take two steps.
我只能移動兩步
any time when I'm brought out,
當我被帶出去放風
I walk briefly or infrequently.
只走幾步路而已
I have chains on my hands and feet
我的手腳上也有鎖鏈禁錮
as well as guards hanging on me
並且有守衛抓著我
And well over sixteen years since I have actually walked anywhere
16年來我幾乎沒有走過路
sometimes I still can't wrap my mind around now
有時候我也不知道自己在想什麼
I'm working on my seventeenth year now .
這是我被囚禁的第17個年頭
There were times when I thought,
有時候會想
'surely, someone's gonna put a stop to this.
“肯定會有人阻止這一切的
Surely someone is gonna do something'
肯定有人會這麼做”
But they never do
但沒有人
Time just rolls on
時光卻滾滾向前
It's insanity
真是瘋狂
I'm truly amazed of what they've gonna allow to get away with
我驚訝於
and for how long
他們能讓我們離開多久
Oh well,
好吧
there's no good to dwell on it
這樣做沒有好處
either I waste my energy by focusingon things I cannot change
與其浪費精力在這些我無法改變的事情上
or I can serve my energy
不如在這些我能改變的事情上
and to bled to small things I can change.
竭盡全力
That's what the I Ching calls --
那就是《易經》中
the taming power of the small.
“風天小畜”的含義