Cold, Dark Winter

I take a breath and try to recollect
Who I am and where I’ve been
I don’t recognize my own face
I don’t even remember my name
What doesn’t kill you makes you weaker
When you’re hooked up to synthetic machines
Just so you can breathe
Am I sinking or just dreaming?
Trapped in a vessel going nowhere
I try to reach you, but no words escape
Could you blame me if I felt like giving up?
Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever
The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and leave
To decease must be better than purgatory
The cynic in me is telling you to leave
But I can’t justify the end of life with no goodbye
It was just like a dream when I saw you at my bed
Felt your hand latching on, but no grip could be given back
I see her in my room crying tears for my endless sleep
I’d trade places, embrace it so you wouldn’t face it alone
Because I am
Trapped in a vessel going nowhere
I try to reach you, but no words escape
Could you blame me if I felt like giving up?
Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever
Tell me this cold, dark winter won’t last forever
Leave me to rot in this hospital
What a burden I must be
I don’t blame you if you leave
The cynic in me is screaming to pull the plug and leave
I feel a hand reach into my dream pulling me from purgatory