Tug Of War

Tug of War Krizz Kaliko）--Andy Mineo
Momma praying for me
Grandma praying for me
Satan preying on me
Jesus waiting on me
Cause Ive been straddling the fence its time to make decisions
Ive been thinking about Heaven lately dont think Ill get in
Cause Ive been going back and forth I love the way Im living
But I hate it at the same time cause I know Im sinning
And I dont want to be like them hypocritical Christians
So I stay away from Jesus completely till Im ready to give Him
Everything but that seems like itll never happen
My girl coming over later you know whats about to happen
Then after some smashing Im sitting there asking
If eternity in Hell is worth some moments of this satisfaction
Man Im so back and forth
Im back and forth like a tug of war
Ive been fighting for my life like Im trying to get my life right
And I really want more and I dont know
Back and forth like a tug of war
And Ive been fighting for control and fighting for my soul and this is war
Ive got two choices
Both require pain
Ones the pain of change or the pain of staying the same
One of them leads to joy
Other one leads to shame
One of them leads to freedom the other one keeps me in chains
I wear a cross and give you thanks for my blessings Aint that enough
Why you want everything Cant you leave this part of my life untouched
I thought following you meant I only had to say yes once
Now every day I wake up you give me some cross to take up
You really want me to break up with my girl Now thats too much
I know whats best for me
You dont understand my complexities
See I gotta make a living so dont ask where my checks come from
Now I hear you talking I aint gone numb
I know Im in the dark and I gotta find my way to the Son cause
He calling on my name and I know I cant run
Im so back and forth
Im back and forth like a tug of war
Ive been fighting for my life like Im trying to get my life right
And I really want more and I dont know
Back and forth like a tug of war
And Ive been fighting for control and fighting for my soul and this is war
I drown on broken hearts
A man full of regrets
The thrill has left the empty promises of sin sets
You wanna put treasure inside my hands but you cease
Cause theyre clamped holding on the sins I wont release
I dont know how to start loving you and stop doing what Im doing if I gain you tell me what Im really losing
You have to change me and my sins Id never choose Him
My heart needs to see something greater than what Im pursuing so
Is it true that you give rest to the weary Can you accept and repair me
Do you hear me Its so clear and now its painfully apparent
That I cant have my sin and my Savior theyre not for sharing
Anything that I lose to follow you is not a loss
Mygirlfriend my friends my money even my job
But sometimes I believe the lie
That God dont provide for His child when they obey thats so cray
He calling me to freedom I think that its time to walk
I dont see every step but the next is out of the dark
Im the filthiest of them all but Im YOURS if you wash me
From that sin by the blood of that cross
Im yours