Lose-Lose Days

Smiling through the lose-lose days of confusion
You picked me right off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
Im realizing the answer Ive already found.
Never-ending days wore on
I was aimless, and yet focused
The oxy-est of morons, I know.
Stuck deep composing ghost hits.
Fist to the desk, then next the sky
Well aware of the dangerous heights and falls
Back then.
Trusted nobody at all.
I was all bark no bite.
Fighting with god.
When it got dark at night,
The hours got long.
Outta nowhere, now at my side
Standing 5 strong
Back then, we saw nothing wrong
Lost.
The dreams we had gathered here to find
Turned into the blind leading the blind
Today it hurt again.
We bandaged bruises.
Who gives a damn if theyre right?
Smiling through
The lose-lose days of confusion
I was well on my way
To diving, all alone, thinking 'damn, Ive grown up'
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay
Trusting, choosing allies
Wasnt my style,
Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
Im realizing the answer Ive found.
If I got you, I just might stick around.
Got in a fight with myself again
And I lashed out, no surprise
Try as I might, look a saint cant sin
At least in everyones eyes
Broken pieces, MY life
Now a puzzle on a dusty floor
And right on time
When I feel that I cant get by
I getcha knock on my door
Yall say 'itaint all bad'
Talk me down slow
Cheer up and take my hand,
Find somewhere to go
We laugh and chat away
Nothing remains
That little cloud from today
Might ask 'why?'
Cause somehow Im still not satisfied
I swallow this helpless, selfish pride
Still not, backing down
Cuz this is our town
No, I aint frowning for you!
Smiling through
The lose-lose type disillusions
I was well on my way
To diving, all alone, thinking 'damn, I miss home'
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay
Trusting, choosing allies wasnt my style
Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
Right through this rowdy and crowded downtown.
If I got you, I just might stick around.
Permanent markers run.
White colored pencils dont leave impressions.
We took this canvas
We painted landscapes
All in our OWN shade of truth
Time and time again I can prove…
That Im smiling through
The lose-lose days of confusion
Sure, I was well on my way
To diving, all alone , thinking 'damn, Ive grown up'
To rolling eyes and deciding to stay
Trusting, choosing allies Wasnt my style,
Till you picked me right up off the ground
Then dust me off as we dance on nonchalantly
Im realizing the answer Ive found.
Im gonna smile and make you guys proud.