Life of the Party

Walk into a room, poke holes in myself
Maybe no one can tell that Im so uncomfortable
Make the way I feel the punch line of the joke
That I wrote in my notes, needed new material
And Im getting attention, its the only one second
Im forgetting that Im lonely
When Im at my low, Im the life of the party
But I dont even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct
Damn it, Im being so dramatic
And there I go again, say Im overreacting
Gave up on myself, Im sorry
But when Im at my low, Im the life of the party
Walk into my room
First thing that I see is the version of me, been avoiding forever
Cause youre not any fun, they dont want you around
Dumb it down for the crowd, gotta keep it together
Push it off a little bit longer
And Ill come back for you when Im stronger
Yeah, all I need is one second
Im forgetting that Im lonely
When Im at my low, Im the life of the party
But I dont even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct
Damn it, Im being so dramatic
And there I go again, say Im overreacting
Gave up on myself, Im sorry
But when Im at my low, Im the life of the party
When Im at my low, Im the life of the party
When Im at my low, Im the life of the party
When Im at my low, I'm the life of the party
But I dont even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Damn it, Im being so dramatic
And there I go again, say Im overreacting
Gave up on myself, Im sorry
But when Im at my low, Im the life of the party
Im the life of the party
When Im at my low, Im the life of the party
Gave up on myself, Im sorry
But when Im at my low, Im the life of the party