Steps 5 & 6 : Distant Ally
When I started like really trying to work on myself,
I started just like dropping a bunch of people
and homies and ****
cause... just because of the whole doing the same ** ** all the time,
like kicking it on the same porch and like drinking
and whatever, whatever.
But then I also realize that...
how do I say this...
just going back to being in ally-ship and [?] with people
who... when you drop those folks, you stop being there for them also,
and I think recently Ive been learning how to be that ally,
but from a distance to where its safe enough for myself also,
you know what I mean?
Where Im not dragged down with you,
but also like *** * with you, solidary,
love you, here for you, here for your work if youre working on yourself,
but if youre not, also, Im...
you know what I mean?
I think that middle ground has been hard for me to find,
cause even just talking about how we need camaraderie,
we need that foundation,
but if you X somebody else out,
thats kinda ****** up.
Its important to build other folks up
I think for me, like, Im my biggest issue.
Like, I give, I give, I give, I dont know when to cut that cord.
I think for me, like mentally, thats like what I battle with within.
I think its just finding that,
like what you were talking about,
finding when to cut the cord and when enough is enough basically
without feeling like youre just being selfish for doing that,
and thats what I sstruggle with the most