mixd up

[Intro]
(My little bonsai planet)
[Chorus: i9bonsai]
Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me, but really at what cost now?
[Post-Chorus: i9bonsai]
Hearts beatin' out my chest, but I'm locked in
I just really wanna live, what did I walk it?
I've been feelin' like a mess, I think I lost it
I won't even say a word, there's no more talkin'
[Verse 1: i9bonsai]
Lost it all, but I'll make it back
I'm losin' time, yeah, I'm losin' track
Don't know why I ****in' laugh
It's overwhelming, yeah, I can't do that
[Chorus: i9bonsai]
Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me, but really at what cost now?
[Verse 2: blackwinterwells]
I'm mixed up, confused
Don't know me, or you
No one knows me like you do
Spent my whole life confused
Yeah, blend it up like a smoothie
Mix all of my guts into bits, then consume me
In the wired, like I'm Gumi
Disappearing act, if I owe you something, sue me
I'm disaffected, unscrew my head a bit
Papers are so ripped, there's no proof that I still exist
But I still bleed though, so much I'll stain you
Lady Macbeth on your hands then replace you
[Verse 3: 8485]
It's a risk and I don't think I wanna take it
Think I'm in cause I'm convincing when I fake it
But I know by the time that I make it
To the start of the line
Won't race 'cause I can't win
Can't escape, but can't begin
Way too late and stretched too thin
Faults are breaking on my skin
I'm so scared, I'll never try
No one's there, so why should I be?
I don't care, no, I won't cry
Sit and stare while it goes by me
[Chorus: i9bonsai]
Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me, but really at what cost now?
[Post-Chorus: i9bonsai]
Hearts beatin' out my chest, but I'm locked in
I just really wanna live, what did I walk it?
I've been feelin' like a mess, I think I lost it
I won't even say a word, there's no more talkin'